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Sorry

2012-02-08T04:52:00.000-08:00

I'm not a good friend.

*bangs head on a wall

2012-02-04T05:47:00.000-08:00

Dream High 1 is much more intriguing to watch than Dream High 2.

the line of actors and actresses were bombastic, too compared to DH2.

the storyline makes people anticipate what will happen next. but not DH2.

*pegy youtube search DH1 balik.

; (

like a bee in a bottle. ; )

2012-01-31T06:46:00.000-08:00

i get the feeling that my roommates are getting annoyed at my presence in the room.

; (

why?

because i've been staying in the room for the whole day, only going out for toilets and buying lunch outside.

i've been doing my privatization essay since morning, straight after i woke up and showered and i only finally managed to complete it at 5PM.

Then I slept until 6.30PM and then I go online until 7.30PM.

and i continued to go online till now. ; )

gosh.

my roommates must be bored with my presence in the room. they left the room for... i think for no reason.

isk.

sebab tu lah aku nak balik tiap4 weekend. bila tak balik je duduk terperap dalam bilik, menganga tunggu lalat masuk. sampai roommates pun dah bosan pandang muka aku. =.=

HAHAHA but i don't care. i love my room and i'm not going to leave it whenever I have the chance.

No 77 jgn main kasar!

2012-01-28T20:28:00.000-08:00

"no 77 jangan main kasar"
haha warning cik referee kpd manusia berjersey 77 semasa perlawanan bola baling.

opss.
aku tersengih-sengih dan mengangguk-angguk kepala kepada cik referee.

nama team dah la tak commercial langsung. mcm nama main letak je asalkan cukup syarat. memang nama takde intention nak menang pun.
tekalah nama team apa.tekalah.

TEKALAH. >: O

cengkerik comel.
XD XD XD XD

malu betul aku dengan nama team tu.
but as time goes by masa hari competition tu, bila cheer semangat before masuk court, dok terjerit4 nama tu, melekat pulak nama tu. I grewfonder to the name cengkerik comel.
i remember,
even referee pun xsanggup nak sebut nama 'comel' tu. haha. dia sebut: "cengkerik...... errr....comel" *tahan ketawa.

cis cik referee >:O jealous lah tu!
oh well walaupun nama cengkerik comel, and kami takdelah hebat mana pun. sorg bekas sprinter, confirm4 xd background bola baling. sorg lg netball. 2 org bekas hockey player. sorg lagi.... err... bekas ahli ninjutsu? haha. xmembantu langsung. lg 2 xde bekas player mana4.

tapi siapa sangka dapat jugak ktorg pegy quarter final. dlm among the best 8 tau!

tapi saat quarter final, kecundang di tangan Eliminator. cis. striker die mak aih keding tinggi. laju betul. =.=
goalie die mak aih tinggi. nak attack bola atas pun die dpt tepis. =.=
tapi goalie kami tetap LEGEND. ; D

so far kalau kami xde goalie sehebat goalie kami, confirm4 ktorg dah kalah kat peringkat awal.
die punya save tu menyelamatkan kami sepanjang 4 game yg kami main.

hidup cengkerik comel XD

perempuan main bola baling. lelaki main futsal. kami both dpt masuk quarter final tp kalah. oh well who cares. janji baju kami paling cantik mcm miss universe XD dr jauh boleh kenal. x lame mcm group lain.

oh yeah, nama group futsal lelaki kelas kami is : CABUT GIGI.

random gila. but still, walaupun nama xcommercial, kami tetap the best 8 XD

ada satu group tu nama dia AAPB. mula4 i wonder what it stands for, rupanya AAPB stands for : Ahmad Azri Punya Bini.

Ahmad azri tu nama class rep mereka.

so aku terfikir, kalau kelas kte was to buat nama mcm ni jugak, then us would be : SSPB - Shahrezal Shukri punya bini.

euww.. class rep aku perut buncitt. taknak!

aaand again plug bilik takboleh pakai. =.=

i officially hate mawas. bila plug da boleh pakai, blackout pulak satu bangunan.

mawas will always be mawas.

mawas, you spoil my beautiful sunday morning. =.=

morning kebenda, dah pukul 1 XD

2012-01-12T04:05:00.000-08:00

luasnya dunia.
luasnya ilmu.
luasnya kuasa Allah.

Upward social comparison is sometimes needed in your life.
Having your self-esteem downgraded is a good challenge for yourself to be better and to get back up.

Baru aku sedar dunia ni penuh, ramai orang.
macam-macam perangai. Sampaikan aku rasa aku sorang je betul.
tapi bila tengok kawan-kawan yg lain, I realized that there's so much to learn from them. There's so much to do to surpass them. Other people is not yet my aim. What I have now is not adequate to compete with other people.
masih di level rendah, budak mentah yang kena strive hard to be at least on the same level with your own friends.

For this, I thank Allah.

hi. hi.

2012-01-11T05:25:00.000-08:00

orang sebaya saya semakin maju dan mature.
saya? masih memerlukan bantuan rakan untuk melintas jalan. : |
masih memerlukan supply Milo dan masih menyukai Milo walaupun orang lain sudah berubah taste mereka kepada Nescafe. : |
masih sibuk mengadu dengan dunia bila jatuh tangga when others are talking about makeups and phones and boyfriend -- eh memang dr dulu orang sebaya saya bercakap pasal benda tu. err.
masih walking around dengan berkata : "B***ng punya polis!" "Woi kereta tepilah!" "Jgn mati! jgn mati! Pleaseeee lagi sikit je!"
people would wonder what happened to me. suddenly shouting desperately tapi bila dalam kelas senyap semacam mcm semut. dah la kecil, senyap je pulak tu.
But really, bila semua orang sibuk dengan masalah dunia: 901, NFC, Bersih blablabla, saya masih sibuk dengan masalah MENYELAMATKAN DUNIA. sampai tak tidur malam. tak siap assignment. tak makan. tak minum. tak basuh baju. sebab main game.

seriously.
bila saya nak stop jadi ignorant dan mula memerhatikan the corrupt world crumbling apart??
Tp hakikatnya aku suka sungguh dengan diri aku. hihi.
pedulikan semua org.

bye.

2012-01-03T03:13:00.000-08:00

29 Dec 2011
tengah otw drive balik rumah when i received a call from mama.

"dik, papa dah meninggal,"

me : "papa? papa mana?"
in my heart, i dreaded the fact that it's the papa i know; my most favorite and beloved uncle. tapi hati masih kuat utk deny the fact.

mama : "papa la. papa.. papa mana lagi,"

me : "papa mane??"

mama : "papa lah dik. meninggal tgh hari td, kat jakarta"

and i immediately knew. but still, aku masih xboleh terima hakikat. papa? one of my closest relative, one that has been very close with me, watching me grow up, taking good care of me, main-main dgn aku, gurau-gurau, usik-usik, and even encourages me in things that I do. He took interest in what I do and asked earnestly. he advised me, he showed me a lot of things.
papa yg aku anggap mcm ayah sendiri.

bila balik kg, lagilah meleleh air mata.
everyone's mourning.

Allah lebih sygkn die.

cuma aku terkilan sebab papa meninggal kat sana.

makin sayu bila aku peluk makcik aku. makin sayu lagi bila tengok cousin4 aku.
makin sedih bila aku melangkah pergi dari tempat papa bersemadi.

tapi the fact that we are together to go through the hard times buat kesedihan tu ter-concealed.
tapi bila aku ada kat sini, jauh dr family, aku rasa mcm nk balik kg. because i feel at peace. xde la rasa mcm nk menangis je bila igt kat papa.

ada hikmahnya. ada iktibarnya bila semua ni jadi.
mungkin taknampak sekarang. tapi mesti ada.

baru beberapa hari lepas aku ziarah org meninggal. aku tak sangka yang orang dr family aku pun akan menyusul.
aku taksangka papa pergi cepat sgt. aku taksempat nk ucap terima kasih. aku xsempat nk balas jasa dia.
tak dapat aku nk cerita minat aku kat dia lagi. tak sempat aku nak senyum kat dia.
takdapat aku nk dengar suara dia lagi. takdapat aku nak dengar cerita dia lagi.

kalaulah aku sedih sangat, apakan lagi anak-anak dia. makcik aku. yang memang satu keluarga. aku tau dorang mesti lebih sedih.
bila aku duduk dgn mereka, cerita pasal papa, hati aku sebak lagi.

tapi aku redha dgn pemergiannya.

aku terhutang budi dengan papa. dan aku xsempat nk ucap terima kasih.
Yassin dan al-Fatihah saje yg mampu aku sedekahkan setiap kali. tp tak ternilai jasa dia pada aku dan keluarga.

.

2011-12-27T04:30:00.000-08:00

tengok jenazah dikafankan dan disolatkan are a very remarkable experience, that I need to cherish it in my mind and heart.
though I don't really know the deceased, the heart felt gloomy and slightly painful as I felt miserable alongside it.
and when i returned home, everything felt surreal.

insaflah .

*

2011-12-26T06:04:00.001-08:00

paling mengecilkan hati bila anda cuba untuk membantu seseorang dgn niat baik dan ikhlas namun halfway anda melalui susah payah nk membantu tu, org yg anda nk bantu tu reject bantuan anda bulat-bulat, kotak-kotak pdhl initially die agree utk menerima bantuan anda.
paling mengecilkan hati lagi drpd yg di ats bila semua rejection tu disebabkan oleh perasaan takut rahsianya diketahui anda.

seriously. aku takde rasa pun nak mengambil tahu. i would even close my eyes if i must, dgn tujuan xnk amek tahu langsung pun hal peribadimu, wahai rakan. i learned my lesson. back then.

in conclusion ; hati besi dan ignorant ini amat kecil hati dgn kelakuan kamu, wahai rakan. ;'(

nostalgic

2011-12-25T09:12:00.000-08:00

the current DBSK and JYJ can never compare to the old DBSK.
with the 5 of them together, they're legend. they are the 5 legends that dominate the kpop world, always.

*sigh.

well i guess that's all history now.

their old songs were much more excellent when compared to their current song w/o the 5 of them together. : |

who said life is fair?

2011-12-20T05:06:00.000-08:00

cita-cita untuk mendemamkan diri(lepas mandi hujan secara paksarela) dan ponteng kelas hari khamis yang paling bosan hancur begitu sahaja bila balik tadi terkocoh-kacah telan panadol sebab esok ada TEST ECONOMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY *nangis tergolek-golek.

erghhh.

errrghhhh.

ERRRRGGGHHHH.

bye econs. aku takfaham notes yg aku tulis sendiri. @.@

guilty pleasure

2011-12-13T04:00:00.000-08:00

1. I love JB veryveryveryveryveryvery much

2. JPO makes me love JB more than veryveryveryveryveryveryvery much

3. I fell in love with Burberry. So even when the person that i hate the most gives me Burberry, I'll be : D and I'll give in. hee. Seriously, rasa mcm nak beli satu kedai Burberry tu.

4. JPO makes me remember Bicester so much that I miss the moments there. I regret that I'm not very fond of shopping at that time. Otherwise, satu Bicester aku beli.

5. I'm really starting to sound like a shopaholic here.

6. I'll stop talking about JPO and shopping.

7. Again, I love JB. : D

lately, I find that my stand is becoming weaker and I start to waver again. why oh whyy?

Having this one new acquaintance that keeps coming to my room is not helping at all. It'll remind me of the past. oh tidak tidak ;'| neither do facebook and old friends. haaaaiiiihhh.

aaaanddd my English is seriously degrading. I need to play more games and read more books and... get distracted from my law subjects.

oh. tadi almost kantoi dengan lecturer sbb skip class die hari isnin lepas. oh shoot. tp yg plg bestnya was that, there's quite a bunch of people who were absent on that particular day, but he only asked me! and me alone. "why're you absent on 5/12?" hehe. i gave ambiguous and long answer that people immediately know I'm bluffing. ala okay la tu drpd aku cakap ; "I'm too lazy to come to class," kan? habis aku kena panggang kang.

indulgence?

2011-12-09T19:02:00.000-08:00

Friday, 1PM-1AM

I pampered myself by simply lying on my not-cosy-at-all bed, never moving my lazybutt from the bed and played PsP all day long. until the exact 1AM. heehee. puas hati!

Now that I've wasted my free time with Mana Khemia, I'll have to focus on my agglomerating assignments *tenggelam under timbunan assignments*

UNUNUNUNUNUNUNUNUN

GENOCIDEGENOCIDEGENOCIDE

CONTRACTLAWCONTRACTLAWCONTRACTLAW

SOCIALPERCEPTIONSOCIALPERCEPTIONSOCIALPERCEPTION

FORUMFORUMFORUM

VIDEOPRESENTATIONVIDEOPRESENTATIONVIDEOPRESENTATION

DIEDIEDIE

i realize now that if we're too nice to people we love, they won't remember nor appreciate you as much. but once if you committed wrong against them, they'll remember you for the rest of their life. or better yet, they tend to get attached to you more.

so i assume, The Jerk Theory really works. kan?

oh aaanyway, The Suicide Circus by The Gazette really rocks. it's not really dark but the music is kinda like their Silly God Disco. hee. lovegazette.

: |

2011-12-06T06:59:00.000-08:00

sometimes in your everyday life, there comes a time where you'll feel like giving up. for no particular reason. you just feel tired and too lazy of everything around you. you just wanna lay on your bed and sleep all day long. or maybe, you'll feel like sketching and painting and never stopping. you feel like everything around you is very annoying, irritating, bothersome and boring. you don't feel like trying to understand what your lecturer is explaining on the front. you just wanna go home and do nothing.

well, that is what I am feeling right now.

giving up, go home and sleep all day long for all I care.

maybe it's just the jetlag, but i really feel like doing that.

oh anyway, I got busted by my lecturer for skipping the classes yesterday. and so I have to made up an excuse, saying that I have transportation problem when the real thing is that I just wanna skip class and lay in my bed all day.

hah.

great. i'm telling the whole world that I'm bored and bored and boooooreeeeddd.

caged drain

2011-12-01T17:08:00.000-08:00

already smitten with Gerard when he finally sacrificed himself by taking in the Etherion in place of Erza, right after he was not possessed by Zeref.

oh maan, suara dah la macho.

but... but...

kenapa dia mati T^T *nangis 4444 baldi

then i was knocked with the news that i couldn't go back home.

and now i really am depressed. : (

don't predict me. you'll never get me.

2011-11-30T02:15:00.000-08:00

"It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive

Even heroes have the right to bleed

I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede

Even heroes have the right to dream

It’s not easy to be me"

Though I am not exactly a hero nor am I a superwoman or anything, am I not allowed to do things that all other people do? Do you really have to set that specific standard for me for things that I can do or things I have to abstain from?

I lead my own life, then why do I have to live according to that standard you people choose for me?

I usually am not choosy in choosing friends, really. but i really hope to find a friend who do not set any standards for me in doing things. I hope to find a friend who doesn't judge me, or even laugh at me when I'm down.

You know, some people here laughed at me when I told them that I had once cried out of panicky. I'd expected them to laugh at me for crying, but I didn't expect them to then tease me about it. I mean, what's so wrong about crying? Am I not allowed to cry like others? Hey come on machaa, you cried, too. right? and I'm a human, too. so why can't I cry? To be honest, I felt offended. and hurt, too. I never teased them about their weaknesses or anything that I think is embarrassing to them, so then why do this to me?

From what I can see, there's only two distinct person that never judge me here. I'm not betting on anything but i guess i can say that, they understand me. and they don't judge me. they don't throw me a disgusting look when I went stray. rather, they encouraged me to stay on the right path. they may not be perfect, or too smart or too pretty or too intelligent, or even, popular, but they are willing to accept me. I'm not putting anything at stake, but i guess for now, I can think of them that way. Though I'm not entrusting all my things to them.

I regard my best friends as my best friends because they don't laugh at me for who I am. They kept cool about it. Hey, I am not a clown, okayy? ore wa clown janai!

So the moral of the story is, don't judge people. Let them be. by judging them, it is the same as placing them a burden, disabling oneselves to act according to their will. Though I've slowly realized this fact and am trying to follow my own path, I still think it's a burden to people. and to me. and i find it ANNOOOYYYIIIIINNNGGG. Repeat : AAAANNOOOOOYYYIIIIINNNNGGGGGGGG. =.=

you get me?

non non non

2011-11-25T05:26:00.000-08:00

boleh tak dah malas nak tengok Fairy Tail sekarang sebab jealous?

Juvia dah masuk.

hati saya pun sudah sakit. isk. ;'(

sampai hati mangaka buat cerita macam ni.

*terus patah hati.

buat masa sekarang, mungkin saya bakal berlari ke arah Loki pulak. tsk. ;'|

How's your 2nd sem going on? 'great. thank you'

2011-11-21T03:56:00.001-08:00

ookay.

so the topic today is : Let's ask Azri how the start of sem 2 goes for you?

and then I will start weeping like crazy.

My day was spoiled when I received a text from my friend claiming that we were already arranged into rooms.

oh great.

When I arrived, it seems that my college processing was incomplete due to my failure submitting the 'kad aktiviti koko' in which, as far as I am concerned, being active in college events are not binding to Asasi student. That's as far as I know. But if my knowledge is wrong, please do tell me.

I was assigned to the room 1A-01-39 . I got the first floor so my dad was happy because then he won't have to drag all my things all the way to the third floor, like old times. I, on the other hand, started to weep. well, not literally, but I was weeping, on the surface of my heart or should I say... heartscape? haha. because I can't be in the same room with my previous roommates.

The very next day, I skipped my first lecture. great. then, when I asked them people who went to the lecture, they said that the lecturer has already introduced a little bit about Contract Law. oh great. I don't even know what that is. I have to make sure to find out about that.

And then I thought there'll be no lecture on the evening because it was informed earlier that the lecturer was not in. The class was supposed to be at 2.10. I only found out about it at 1.45. and obviously, I definitely won't make it in time. I texted my classmate to text me when the lecturer's in. after a few minutes, she texted saying that the lecturer's already in. And I was like 'sh*t' and I practically run for my life >.< penat wohh naik bukit. yang paling best; lecturer yang masuk tu is our ketua program. so it kinda equals to our principal for asasi.

BANGG!

the door flew open. I peeked my head inside to see a massive group inside a tiny little classroom.

ni ke yang die panggil lecture hall?

the lecturer's talking and my friend and I walked in, craning our head 360 degree, desperately searching for empty seats. but there were NONE.

"Are you with us?" the lecturer suddenly asked when she finally noticed us standing.

"Yes!" I unconsciously shouted, due to my nervousness.

"You are supposed to be here at 2.10"

"We're kinda lost," I answered spontaneously. I perfectly knew where the class was but I received the message pasal kelas ada on a very short notice. I can't think of any good answers. Explaining things will be much difficult, especially when there were around 90+ pair of eyes staring at us with a face of "you're definitely dead. there's no more seats available and that's our ketua program for God's sake!" "And plus how can you say you're lost? It's already the 2nd sem!" .

"Do you have the timetable with you?" the lecturer then asked.

"Err... Yes," awkwardly, I answered. There. if the timetable's with me, how can i be lost. right? I can't say that I looked at the wrong subjects or timetable. it won't make sense.

"You may sit," the lecturer finally said.

and at last the boys at the back gave up their chair, which they used to put their bags on.

And so I sat directly under an air-cond. The problem is, I was sweating like a sprinkler and I don't know what smell exuded from me--but I hope I don't smell.

andd now my roommate next to me is studying. Econs! For God's sake. It's only the first day. When I asked the reason, dia cakap kawan4 dia yang lain pernah belajar econs dulu4 so dia taknak tertinggal.

Ah great.

2nd sem, please oh please end early.

Please oh please make time fly faster. I promise I'll strive to reach the adequate pointer. : (

car car car

2011-11-13T15:41:00.000-08:00

okayy.

this morning my mom still haven't realize the fact that the car's tyre is completely flat, and it's all because of me. she still haven't realize the fact that the car looks... like tilted to one side because of the flat tyre.

she also haven't realize that the auto gate can't be closed quite properly though it still works and that is also because of me.

alright,

what happened last night was that I was turning to a corner to park inside the house and I misjudged and miscalculated the distance of the car and the gate. well, practically the protruding side on the bottom of the gate. so what happened was that I drove oh so carefully, yet distractably due to my sister's loud voice, and then suddenly I heard a loud

PSSSSSHHHHHHH.....!

I thought the car's scratched real bad. and i was like 'ohcrapI'msodead' . My sister got out of the car and rushed to the side of the damaged car. In the midst of the darkness and the pitter patter of rain, I can hear her voice faintly : "tayar pancit!"

and I was like WHAAAATTT? tayar pancit???!

I rushed outside of the car and went to her and she showed me the scratched mark on the tyre and saw that the tyre was COMPLETELY flat and torn and... in a very sad state.

oh crap. yesterday I just bumped into another car thus earning a 'kemek' on my mom's car.

just the next day I torned my dad's tyre!

and what's more, I just got scolded by my dad because of my mom's car, and just 5 minutes after my dad left for KL I wrecked yet another car. my dad haven't even reached KL safely. not even Negeri Sembilan!

great. I am just great. I am destructive. =.=

matilah aku macamni.

"tengok ni. pagar dah senget!" my sister shouted again.

'i'msosodeadthanohcrapi'msodead'

I rushed to the gate and realized the problem.

since i'm afraid to tell my mom or even call my dad, I wrote a note to my mom and left it on her laptop in her room. I figured writing is the best way so i don't have to frantically find for words when I'm talking.

Just that, I'm going to earn another cold scolding from my dad. FOR SURE.

now i'm pretty sure in time i'll lost count of the total car I have damaged.

currently, it's 3.

for a beginner and just-s-few-months-P, you would think I deserve to have my P taken back, right?

well honestly, i think so too but i don't want to mention it. mulut masin.

tomodachi ga aru.

2011-11-08T04:42:00.000-08:00

I have a friend. She is the one I truly appreciates.

I have a friend. She is the one that I truly do not want to let go. But I want to share her with everyone I know because she is like a sun to me.

Her light radiates in my world, and will keep on shining, even in my darkest hour. Afterall, factually, sun always shine and will never stop lighting up, darou?

This friend has helped a lot of people to get back up and face life. She is radiant. She always try to make others happy and she tries to understand others. She is courageous and she doesn't have this one tall wall that we usually need to overcome when we get to know someone.

Though I know that deep down, she always keeps her own matters to herself, unable to share to others. I don't really understand the reason but I think, maybe she wouldn't want to burden others, or she do not know how to express it to others. But really, I don't think my friends' problem is a burden to me. not at all. because to me; friends are the one who support you when you are down, when family is no longer your first option.

I guess you understand what I mean, right?

and for that reason, I am indebted to my fellow friends; Yume.

They not only shared my happiness, but they also heard my cries and wiped away my tears, for every reason that happened in my life. They shield me from every harm and they accept me as I am. and I am really grateful for that. They are the friends and family that I have when I needed the most. In short, they are there to help me get through the darkest moment in my life.

Though I know they have their own problem but they were always willing to hear my thoughts.

And she is one of them.

Quoted from Kate Hudson in Something Borrowed:

When I look back the memories that I had experienced, the bad and mostly the good times; you are in there, most of it.

It's funny though.

Her mom thanked me for being her friend.

but I think I should be the one to thank her.

I am a friend that always brought in troubles in our friendship. I know that I always make her feel down and angry. But nonetheless, she is always willing to accept my apologies.

I remember that one time where we had a great big fight. I knew it's a cold war between us. I started it. and so I never blamed her.

When the fight was over, I apologized again to her. But instead, she apologized to me.

Her words have always comforted me. She supports me in everything that I do. Even when we are apart now, she never fails to comfort me.

How could I not appreciate her so much?

dakara, dear friend,

maybe I failed in expressing what I wanted to say verbally, but I hope, my feelings reach to you.

remember, when you are tired of the world, just stop for a while and look up to the sky.

Just like what you said to me: we will always be looking at the same blue sky. : )

make out the shapes of the clouds; 'Salmey marah' or even 'apple' .

and then remember us. Yume to Claypot.

you can always count on us.

there are people out there who called you names, or looked down on you. But to me, you are the sun. and sun can never be trampled!

and I'm here. always here behind you to protect you from behind.

meh bagi kite tumbuk je orang yang buli awak. takde siapa yang boleh buli awak selain kite tau! >: 0

for everything, I wanna say thank you. A WHOLE LOT.

and for you, I always wish that I could be standing next to you and walk side by side.

to fly and reach the sky, while doing what we always do: PLAY HARD AND LAUGH HARD!

because when I'm with you, I feel like I can do anything.

dakara, Tomato-san, zutto zutto tsuyokunakereba yo! : D

datte, atashi wa itsumo tomato-san ni soba ni aru kara .

macam mana eja flu dalam melayu??

2011-10-05T06:18:00.000-07:00

i'm letting everything go. finally.

huaaaaaahh.

though it's hard and it took me a long time, I persevered. and slowly, I let go.

heh. puas hati dan lega. ; )

LIFE, come back to me. haha.

1A-03-11 = gayness

2011-09-30T03:53:00.000-07:00

"azri. saya sayang awak lah. awak tak sayang saya ke?"

"azri kenapa awak taknak terima cinta saya?!"

"azri saya sayang awak lah,"

"azri, awak suka saya tak azri?"

ayat-ayat cinta milik roommate aku yg sering ditujukan kepada aku. percaya tak? haha. percaya lah. aku tak tipu.

"ee vanessa awak gay!"

balas roommate aku yang satu lagi.

"memanglah saya gay pun. Fyra, awak suka saya tak?"

roommate aku yang gay tu bermain kata memutar belit ayat.

"vanessa saya suka awaklah,"

tiba-tiba yg seorang lagi mencelah, menyatakan isi hatinya.

".... saya pun suka awak lah, ani,"

"eeeee! gayy!"

roommate aku Fyra yg dok ckp vanessa gay tu berkata lagi.

"tapi saya suka azri jugaklah,"

vanessa berkata lalu memandang aku. aku yang tengah tekun diri memerhatikan mereka bermain kata-kata indah romantik chewahh tu hanya mampu terdiam.

"....tapi saya tak suka awak lah vanessa,"

aku mengaku seikhlas hati. ya. hati aku pada superman haha. dan Masamune Date. Suzuki Akira. Jang Joon Ha banyak hati aku yang dah dibahagikan. takde ruang utk dia lagi.

"saya pun suka awak lah vanessa,"

tiba-tiba roommate aku Fyra mengaku sambil tangan texting boyfriend dia. dasar curang haha.

"Awak dah ada ani dengan Fyra. takpayahlah saya,"

aku kata dengan muka straight.

"tapi saya sayang awak jugak lah azri!"

"...."

__________

berikut merupakan dialog yang sering disebut-sebut dalam bilik kami. yeah kami gay . err... sabar. relax. cuba bukak kamus. cari makna gay. and korang akan faham apa yang aku maksudkan dengan gay .

sejak semalam, aku memerhati dan membantu kawan4 aku angkat barang ke bawah dan..... pergi. sampai pukul 10 tadi. aku terkebil-kebil sorang4, kena tinggal dalam bilik sorang diri. sedih dohh haha. bukan sedih pasal nak balik cepat. err... okelah. adelah jugak sedih part tu. tp mostly sedih sebab tengok dan hantar roommate aku balik. sorang, sorang melambai bye bye kat aku.

hah.

masa first4 datang kolej, awal4 je ktorg 4 org rapat, kluar makan hari4 despite schedule lain4. tapi over time, masing4 busy, last4 ikut haluan sendiri. keluar makan dengan classmate, mostly. aku jelah si pemalas yang tak beramah mesra dgn classmate sendiri. aku cuma jadi penghuni tetap 24jam dalam bilik. hari4 makan maggi, nasi lemak. maggi, nasi lemak. kadang malam malas dah nak makan sebab malas nak keluar.

ni tiba-tiba dah nak akhir sem, ktorg boleh rapat balik. keluar makan sama-sama. duduk dlm bilik sama-sama. keluar sama-sama. dah macam kembar siam 4. pergi exam hall pun sama-sama. the last 4 week. sampaikan classmate ktorg pun dah taknak layan ktorg lagi, sebab mengabaikan mereka. haha. ampun classmate. roommate aku bagai adik-beradik kat sini.

maka punahlah harapan aku, berkecai lah hati aku kat atas lantai kalau aku takdapat satu bilik dgn dorg lagi next sem. ish.

teringat aku waktu aku tiba4 tengah4 malam terbangun. masa tu kes rasuk merasuk kat tingkat aku tengah galak. aku tengok jam. pukul 5. shit. takboleh tdo dah. punyalah macam4 cerita aku terbayang-bayang. cepat4 aku bangun kejut ani, mintak tdo sebelah dia. haha. dasar penakut.

teringat haritu bilik ktorg panas gilaa sampai kawan aku tarik katil cantumkan sebab nak dapat angin. haha. tidur lambak kat situ. ani ambil selimut aku. fyra ambil bantal aku. vanessa pun. aku? sehelai sepinggang. last4 aku tarik balik bantal aku dr fyra, and pakai selimut vanessa. berpeluh pun peluh la. janji aku tak takut. heh.

yang paling lawak masa ani dgn fyra tengok 7 differences dlm komputer, tiba4 keluar gambar hantu. muka and jerit dorg memang priceless sampai aku nak baca doa lps solat pun terbantut dek kelakar gilaa. vanessa dah terguling-guling ketawa atas lantai.

lepastu masa aku marah mengamuk lepas aku gaduh dengan kawan aku. vanessa tengah tidur. aku terus baling fon aku, tercampak ke mana-mana. tiba-tiba vanessa cepat4 terbangun; "OH SHITT!" dia kata sambil jengah-jengah bawah katil dia. ani ngn fyra tengok dia pelik. suddenly;

"telefon saya ke yang jatuh?"

....

terus terguling-guling pecah perut aku, fyra dgn ani ketawa. tak jadi aku nak marah4 badmood. yanng jatuhnya fon aku. vanessa pulak yg caring terlebih. haha. fyra tanya : "malu tak?" vanessa jawab : "saya malu lah," haha. makin galak ktorg berdekak dalam bilik tu. vanessa memang lawak gila dohh.

vanessa, if ever you're reading this, you must know and never forget; vanessa = sense of humour. XDD

and aku, masih terperangkap di shah alam lagi. couting hours aku nak balik. and most of the time, ditinggalkan seorang diri, sebab tuan tempat aku tumpang tempat tinggal selalu busy. sunyi. sepi. takut. err takdelah takut sangat. bosan lah kiranya. hmph.

=.=

; |

2011-09-17T09:30:00.000-07:00

Firstly, my lecturer was not kidding when he said 'it' needed a lot of practices. damn. i'm screwed. and i forgot; lecturers are always right. =.=

Secondly, boleh saya tanya kenapa Reita never cease to be such a handsome man walaupun dia semakin... tua?? ...semakin tua semakin handsome, it seems.

dulu NLSG buat aku gila.

kini...

NLSB. - Nameless Liberty Six Bullets di mana semua member Gazette pada akhirnya nangis yes nangis i repeat. and since die buat live di Tokyo Dome, I'm surprised bila such big crowd bagi such positive and LOUD respond to Ruki. ergh.

he is always on the very top of my list. he never goes down. and dia ad bass baru warna merah haha. ; D

...need to... study...

2011-09-13T23:31:00.000-07:00

i am distracted and so as my friend.

and both of us FAILED to study.

=.=

dang. it's final for GOD'S SAKE!

jomlah studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

*golegolekgolekgolek

tak layak

2011-09-12T05:37:00.000-07:00

aku tak layak comment apa4.

mahupun memegang penyapu dengan muka bengis.

mahupun buat muka mcm minum susu basi.

mahupun bersuara kuat mcm nk terkeluar anak tekak.

..... sebab ini bukan tempat aku.

ini bukan bilik aku.

aku terpaksa ulang ayat yang sama dlm lebih kurg 10 kali untuk aku faham apa yg aku baca.

kalau aku tahu, aku takkan buat keputusan sebegini.

aku menyesal.

sungguh menyesaaaaal. ; |

dan pakcik tu tak best. ; |

pakcik tu nak lanyak aku. chih.

mungkin ini kali terakhir aku di sini. hmm.

aku give up.

epiphany? nope.

2011-09-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

now i realized that the course i'm riding on is CERTAINLY, ABSOLUTELY, NO joke.

=.=

though it's interesting, judging from others hardworks when comparing it to mine, er... aku punya 4000 kaki bawah kerak bumi kot. everybody else is struggling like, VERY hard and yes, i mean VERY, VERY hard.

i realized it's not a course that you can be so laid back and play, like the type of person i am. and i realized that, i am waaayyy too behind, again, when compared to my peers.

*sigh.

i really should get my butts up and work out to strive and achieve what i hoped to achieve. better yet, what my parents expect me to achieve.

i fancy reading. yes. but that was my hobby before Playstation Portable made it's appearance and i was cleaaarrrly entranced by that thing, since it's PORTABLE and the graphic is waaayyy too excellent than Gameboy.

and again, i fancy reading, IF i understand what i'm reading. on the other hand, i dislike reading=remembering stuffs that i don't understand. it seems like my brain denied access to any cupboards, bags, or anything that can store that particular thing that i don't understand.

pheww.

=.=

i really, REALLY should be working hard as my peers. ; |

and i'm sad.

because i won't get to play too hard anymore if i do so. i'm only able to play hard. and that sucks. for a gamer like me. ; |

i can't bear with the lack of sleep. otherwise, the whole world will experience my wrath. oh well, more like temper. haha. but seriously, i can't. i really can't stand the lack of sleep.

OKK

2011-08-22T08:09:00.000-07:00

ergh.

bosan lah. faham tak.?

hari-hari presentation. tapi nervous tak hilang4 jugak. cakap masih gagap4 jugak. =.=

exam makin dekat, makin kuat nafsu nak main game. Persona lah, Trauma Team lah, Agito lah, DMC4 lah. =.=

cuti raya sekejap je. raya ketiga dah kena pulang ke penjara. =.=

argh.

geram.

cuba lah kalau hari4 aku mengadap boyfriend yang macam ni :

kan best? kan?

*terus berangan.

wishing and hoping

2011-08-21T07:26:00.000-07:00

there's no use clinging to the past, aite?

miracle, please happen. ; |

2011-08-20T07:27:00.000-07:00

good storyline, less conflict, simple and short.
namun begitu, reason to support sesuatu conflict tu kurang kukuh.
it should be a good play, if the lead actor and the lead actress are someone experienced.
kalau yg experienced, confirm4 aku dah menangis depan laptop gahaha.
but overall, it's satisfying. i agree if there's a second season, given that the ending is really brief.

*______*

i should go and study for the upcoming test now. *_____*

oh well.
maybe tomorrow.
i'm plain sleepy and hungry. ; |

Just Please - CN Blue

2011-08-10T01:48:00.001-07:00

Do you know
This song is for you
The most incredible baby, ya heard

Just Please, I think I had a sorry kind of love
Just Fix, kind of love I can’t grab onto
kind of love I’d realize after it’s over
like a fool

This song is for you dear miss, long time no see
Thank you for helping me realize the extent of my love
I learned that I think of you when it rains
and how to control myself
I learned it all from you. I fall asleep today thinking of you again
The tears that pool under my eyes flow down my face, just thanks

I wake up and let out a regretful sigh
I knew you were hurt but I always ignored it
I hurt you like that because I didn’t know how to love

I expected to receive everything
My foolish love bruised your heart
and your tears never dried
But I didn’t know it back then.
I only wounded your exhausted love.
You can’t hear me even if I call you now, my mind

Just Please, I think I had a sorry kind of love
Just Fix, kind of love I can’t grab onto
kind of love I’d realize after it’s over
like a fool

I’ll keep all those words I spoke to you, the smile I showed you
and my trust in you.
I can’t promise that I’ll forget you.
When the time solves it all, I’ll let you go with a smile.
Just please my mind is true

Can you hear?

2011-08-04T09:31:00.000-07:00

jarang aku bertanya khabar, mengambil tahu hidup orang.

tapi aku paling benci bila orang tak memberi respond bila aku mula bertanya.

welcome to the faculty of law,
whereby you will have to be prepared, both mentally and physically for a whole lot of continuous presentations, both formally and informally.
what kind of formality and informality you say?
oh. of course; Black and White with blazers. informally is being interesting and presentable and... fun? i wouldn't say that, it's more towards... being able to capture people's attention.
and also, the very 'interesting' BEL313 - Introduction to Critical Thinking.
yeah. this is the subject where your mind will go :

you will feel like doing :

and of course, the basic, introduction of what law is.
and also, continuous assignments, which, every student in a university have to suffer from.
but still, ergh.
and the never-stop-talkingakagossiping-friends.
and that include the ones who talk behind your back, too.
and even the ones who stabbed your back.

enjoy your stay in the faculty for about one year, and still, you are still not recognized as law student until you take up degree.
doesn't that kinda makes you feel.... demotivated?
*shrug.
aku pun tak tawu.

sekian. ; ]

freedom of... spiritual?

2011-07-25T03:32:00.000-07:00

i am trying to be a good follower, because i want to be a good leader in the future.

ayat ni macam boleh digunapakai dlm interview je XD kan?
but yeah. that's what i'm feeling right now. trying hard not to hate, nor to judge. because i'm not like this before. aku kan baik. kan? ; D

argh. mati. susah kalau nak jaga hati orang out of morality, instead of sincerity.
susah nak tolerate dgn org out of morality, instead of sincerity.
susah nak hidup when hate becomes part of your life.

macam mana eh?
initially, it was all so smooth and tolerable. but all of a sudden the tables are turned, or should i say the feelings are turned the other way around. living here, though it gives me a lot of moral values, but i can't help not to loathe it. can't help to not feel stuffed and fed-up. i feel like doing it all by myself. tapi siapalah manusia kalau hidup seorang diri, kan? confirm tak boleh hidup punya. jadi... doakanlah kesabaran aku.

err.... i know i should be doing my unfinished and procrastinated assignment instead of complaining. ; (

tata.

err.... tak cool lah tata. kan aku nak jadi cool. tuka. tuka.

choww.

; ]

cool.

2011-07-21T02:23:00.000-07:00

aku nak jadi cool. boleh?

ingat senang ke jadi cool? banyak benda nak control taw. bleaahhh. aku rasa orang cool tu mesti dia penat kan? tak pecaye cube tanye org cool. hah. tak lama pun mesti akan ada one time die TERjadi tak cool. kan?

lalala~~
post takde point haha.

irrelevant.

2011-07-16T11:50:00.000-07:00

menyampah betul. nama title je gempak. tapi kalau point cerita tu untuk semata-mata naikkan rating and tujuan utama untuk cuci mata tengok actor die, baik takpayah. membazir masa buat org bersengkang mata tak tdo malam sbb nk catch up tengok. at last, hampeh.

progress cerita SANGAT lambat dan lembab dan... ergh. annoying lah senang kata. masa interview awal4 dulu, ayat punyalah cantik. ingatkan cerita dia selamba typical tak tension tak bosan dan lawak. tapi rupanya point cerita hanyalah untuk menaikkan populariti dan rating, dan jugak untuk bg orang cuci mata tatap muka actor lama4.

deyy aku pun minat jugak actor tu and partly, sebab tulah aku sanggup tengok walaupun rating awal die tak promising. tapi kalau dah tiap4 episode die pegy close up muke mamat tu dekat penuh satu jam sampai habes drama, aku pun macam nak muntah dah tengok mak ooiii. BAIK TAK PAYAH. buang masa aku je kena seksa diri sendiri tunggu broadband yang kadang4 tak bekerjasama ni. dah la broadband available time weekend je. chih. poodachi. geram betul.

dah la pulak tu. actor die punyelah passive and expression muke memang dua sahaja : sedih menangis golek4 dan expressionless konon4 cool. hari4 nak mengadap muka actor tu emo. kepala angin pulak tu. sesuka hati tok nenek die je bilabila masa dia nak mengamuk. dia ingat dah macho sangat agaknya mengamuk sesuka hati tu. ish. kalau aku jadi heroin tu, confirm confirm aku baling cawan kopi tu kat dia banyak4, lepas tu string guitar tu aku buat strangle dia, lepas tu jerit kuat4 kat dia : "weyh kaw ingat dah cool sangat ke kaw menanges tegolek4 cuma sebab kena reject ngan lecturer kaw? nak muntah aku tengok *muntah. tu bukan cool. tu gembeng namenye" =.= chih. tak puas hati betul.

ish. geramnyaaaaarrrgrghhhhh. *gilasekejap. bila cerita tu mula nak buat scene yg berfaedahh?? dahla actors actresses die semuaanyaaaa tak cukup expression. tak real. tak feeling. tiap4 episode, kerja setiap character penting dalam cerita tu ialah : frust, marah dan menangis. itu je lah tak ubah4.

deyy pengarah dan scriptwriter, ni dah masuk episode 6. biasanya cerita macam ni habes episode 16 sebab conflict tak banyak. kalau progress cerita dah LEMBAB macam ni, confirm4 ending die nanti hancur mcm ending DreamHigh.

damn.
geram hanya kerana menyesal tengok drama takde point.

penaaaaaattt. ; (

2011-07-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

orang senang berubah. therefore, orang tak boleh di-predict. kan? tak boleh nak nilai org tu dari luaran je. hati die susah nak tawu.

sigh.

kenapa aku berfalsafah sentimental sangat? mak aihh. aku rase mcm detrimental kot instead of sentimental.

ntah lahh. aku penat la. hari hari kerja aku kat sini nak kena distinguish between yg pure, dgn yg fake. it's like finding needle in a haystack.

pernah dengar perkataan 'dalam semak ada duri?' .
haa. macam tu lah apa yang aku rasa sekarang. ditambah dengan itu, ramai pulak nak buat cte sedih dengan aku. heish. of all day, why today?? aku penat la. faham tak??
nasib baik countdown lagi 3 hari nak balik.

aku dah lah lapar ni. kang aku gigit kepala setiap org baru tawu. =.=

oh God, please give me enough strength. ; (

Home is where the heart is

2011-07-11T06:58:00.000-07:00

countdown cepat. another 4 excruciating day and then...... cuti! ...... walaupun cuti seminggu je. and confirm4 banyak assignment. em... tak kisah lah. asalkan takpayah menginap kat sini. =.=

aaaanndd.... mari kita tadah tangan berdoa agar aku tidur tanpa gangguan selama 4 hari ni. yeah, i really need it. bila dah akhir4 ni, memang banyaklah cabaran; test, replacement class and furthermore malam pulak tu, assignments yg perlu di-submit lepas break, banyak lah lagi. itu baru physical, belum mental spiritual lagi. i can't imagine kalau aku amek degree nanti (Amiiin). confirm banyak sungguh benda nk kena buat. *selubung dalam selimut. taknaaaaaaakkk ; ( ; (

kerana kaw, rakanku. ; ]

2011-07-06T04:21:00.000-07:00

seumur hidup aku, tak pernah aku encounter any type of human yang macam ni. selalunya cuma dengar cerita dari orang je.

*sigh.

tak berniat langsung aku nak benci membenci. hasut menghasut. aku cuma nak mengadu je ; |

wahai kawan,
ini antara aku dengan kaw. tak perlulah aku kisahkan tentang kami dengan kau.
tak pernah aku jumpa orang seperti kaw. masa mula-mula kita berkenalan dan berkawan, aku cuba sedaya upaya bertungkus lumus nak adapt dengan cara kaw. cara kaw yang sentiasa bersabar dengan segala temptation dunia yang sungguh pentingkan wang. walaupun aku tahu aku tak mampu hidup seperti kaw, aku gagahkan diri semata-mata sebab kaw. (ceh padahal sebab takd kawan lain dah haha tak guna XD )

tak lama lepastu, kita makin kerap luangkan masa bersama. sebab kita perlu menghabiskan segala kerja bersama. aku... err.. biasa je lah. ikutkan saja segala kemahuan kaw, dan aku akan voice out kemahuan aku, dan kita akan buat kerja tu bersama-sama ikut persetujuan bersama. dan kerja kita tak kena condemn, kan, kawan? ; P nasib baik.

tak lama lepastu, kita diberi lagi kerja bersama. dan seperti biasa, kita berlainan pendapat. entah macam mana, mungkin sebab topik yang disentuh oleh lecturer tadi membuatkan aku berubah emosi. aku jadi senyap dan kurang bercakap. aku pun malas nak layan perselisihan faham ni. bila kaw tanyakan pendapat aku, aku suarakan pendapat aku yang memang confirm terang jelas dan nyata bertentangan dengan idea kaw. dan automatically, masa aku sedang petah menyuarakan pendapat aku, kaw terus potong cakap aku dan buat conclusion sendiri. ergh. disebabkan aku tak setuju dan marah dengan sebab kaw potong cakap aku serta accusation kaw yang mengatakan aku tolak bulat4 mentah4 square4 idea kaw, aku terus marah dan tinggikan suara dan julang telefon aku dengan grip yg kuat, tanda nak baling kat muka kaw. almaklumlah, aku kan kurang sabar. lepastu, terus muka kaw berubah. tarik muka satu macam, yg buat semua orang pun rasa tak selesa.

disebabkan insiden tu, aku dah minta maaf, sanggup kan aku jatuhkan ego aku sebab nak jaga hati kaw? hmph. sila terharu sekarang. namun aku tak sangka, aku rasa menyesal minta maaf dengan kaw. sejak insiden itu, kaw semakin menunjukkan diri kaw yang sebenar, WHICH IS UGLY. kaw berkelakuan sesuka hati kaw, seperti aku takut sangat kalau kaw marah kpd aku, macamlah sebenarnya aku takut sangat. kaw berkelakuan seperti.................. ****. ehem. maafkan aku, terkasar bahasa, kawan. aku masih ingat semua kata-kata kaw yang memang sangat mencabar kesabaran aku, sehingga ke hari ini. kaw merupakan punca aku berasa sangat malang dan stress mcm nk guling4 dekat bus stop masa tunggu bas tadi, semuanya sebab KAU, wahai kawan ku.

kini, baru aku sedar. damn. kenapa aku baru sedar hari ni? baru aku sedar bahawa selama ini kaw tak pernah kisahkan well-being kawan-kawan kaw. kaw tak pernah kisah kalau kami terlambat bangun, kaw tak pernah nak tolong kejut. kaw hanya tinggalkan kami terkontang kanting, asalkan kaw bahagia. kaw tak pernah kisah kalau kami tergolek-golek muntah-muntah pengsan-pengsan demam teruk segala, asalkan kaw dapat apa yang kaw nak. kaw tak pernah tanya pun pasal kami. kaw cuma tanya markah test kami, IN WHICH, you mind SO much kalau kami dapat terlebih markah daripada kaw. kaw cuma tanya tentang progress4 kerja kami. kaw cuma fikirkan pasal EMOSI KAW! hah. ni dah tahap aku marah dah ni. ergh. kaw cuma fikirkan pasal kaw tak dapat bercakap kat depan, kaw tak dapat in charge in a certain matter, kaw pegy kelas lambat sebab aku lambat. kaw tak dapat kejar bus sebab aku lambat turun. kaw tak dapat markah hebat. kaw sakit hati sebab aku kecikkan hati kaw. segalanya pasal kaw lah.

kawan,
do know that the world does not, and will not ever revolve around you. even kalau kaw jadi kerabat diRaja, even kalau kaw jadi Prime Minister, dunia sentiasa tak berpaksikan pada kaw semata. dalam dunia ni, kaw kena ambil berat pasal hati orang lain. walaupun kaw taksuka 'love'.

kawan, itu saja yang aku mampu katakan.
ketahuilah, aku sedih dan rasa malang dan stress sebab perangai kaw.
maafkan aku kalau satu hari nanti aku terik rambut kaw aku maki kaw aku perli kaw aku jerit kat kaw, etc. sebab hakikatnya, aku bukan seorang manusia yang sabar.

; |

accident

2011-06-27T05:24:00.000-07:00

harini aku terbangun lambat. maka aku pun bertolak dari JB lambat.
tiba4 dlm kete aku terdengar traffic news kat radio menyatakan bahawa ad accident kat tiga tempat. and salah satu highway is highway yg ayah aku lalu.
so.... sementara ayah aku bertungkus lumus menempuh jammed pasal accident kat tengah4 highway tu, aku pun tidur. (almaklumlah. masih pagi pukul 8 lebih ; P )
class aku supposed to start pukul 9.30 pagi and pagi tu aku ada presentation and aku jugak yg responsible utk bwk laptop utk group aku. aaaand, mase tu dah pukul 9.30 namun aku masih kat tgh4 highway.

maka aku pun text kawan aku begini :

"aku datang lambat la weyh. ade accident. maybe aku tak pegy class terus kot. sorry weyh,"

at last aku berjaya sampai di fakulti dlm pukul 10.15. which, clss tutorial tu habis pukul 10.20. aku pun tunggu je lah luar kelas tu haa. takkan nak masuk kot. habes lah aku kang kena campak luar bangunan dgn lecturer. ; |

bila classmates aku keluar, mereka bertanya : "eh, kata accident????"

aku : "huhh??"

rakan : *ikut blur

aku : "fatin cakap aku accident ke dgn lecturer?"

rakan : "haah. kaw yg accident ke... org lain yg accident?"

aku : "ohh. org lain yg accident. aku tukang tengok je. heheh,"

rakan yang lain pun tiba.

rakan2 : "ehh kate accident??"

aku : *hanya mampu tersengih kerang wangi.

rakan2 : "sir irmo punyelah risau kat kaw bila kami ckp kaw accident" *gelakgelak.

aku : *ketawa tergolek4. oh well, atleast takde lahh aku kena marah kn kalau die tny aku next time. hee.

aku : "patutkah aku terharu dgn sir?" *masih tergelak.

rakan2 : "patut. patut,"

aku pada saat itu rasa relieved sebab at least takde lahh aku takdatang class tak bersebab kan? hahah.
sometimes misinformation can really bring good to us. kan? ; P
Alhamdulillah.

akhirnya aku tak dapat join presentation group aku. ; |

수호의 천사

2011-06-22T20:28:00.000-07:00

지금부터, 난 당신 수호 천사 것입니다. 정말 행복했으면주세요.
당신이 휴식하고, 내가 네 트리 될 수 있도록 시간입니다.

당신에게,,
이 정도로
난 바보 척. 그렇게 무식한 수 있습니다.
난 널 믿어 때문입니다.
당신이 우리는 서로를 받았 알고 것을 알고 있기 때문에.
솔직히 말해서, 난 당신이 무슨 일을하는지 모른 척 수 있습니다.
하지만 다른 사람의 인생이 망쳐보고 참을 수 없습니다.
특히 내가 너무 사랑하는 하나.
이 일을 계속한다면,
난 당신에 대한 내 관심과 사랑이 사라질 것이다 얼마나 모르겠어요.
그럼에도 불구하고, 당신이 아직 모든 부분, 당신은 알고 계십니까?
우리는 여전히 모든 부분있다면하지만 지금은 알지도하지 않습니다.

사태가 진정되고 무너질 때까지 그냥 기다
당신은 그렇게 풀이 죽은 올 때,
볼 당신이 복용하고있는 경로를 알고 제가 좀 궁금 해서요.
또한,
누가 결국에는 당신에게 손을 밖으로 도달합니다.

주시기 바랍니다.
어떤 이유 였든,
난 아직도 사랑하고 너를 위하는 일이야.
더 당신이 뭘 했든 지간에.
에 상관없이 어떻게 내가 상처를하지 않습니다.
당신이 얼마나 멀리 갈 상관 없습니다.
당신이 갈 경우에도,
난 아직도 당신을 위해 관리합니다.
그냥주세요
정말 당신이 전에 사랑했던 사람에게 상처주지 않는.
전체 그림을 망가 뜨 리지 말아요.
난 당신을 빌게요.

내가 이렇게 말하는거야
내가 직접 말할 수 있기 때문입니다.
다시 그때 넌 나처럼 듣지를 어떻게 상관없이, 당신은 우리를 들으려고하지 않을 수 있습니다.

용서해주십시오.
우리를 용서하시기 바랍니다.

aku tetap sayangkan milo. regardless.

2011-06-14T22:34:00.000-07:00

ini lagi satu kisah hikayat aku kat sini.
oh well, insiden ni berlaku pagi tadi sebenarnya.

pagi tu kelas tutorial. lecturer X nama dia. lepas kelas tutorial tu, lecture pulak. and lecture tu pun lecturer X jugak yang bagi. thus, sebab dia masuk lambat masa kelas tutorial, nak masuk lecture pun memang kelamkabut lah sebab nak kena pindah ke auditorium. so dia kata attendance tutorial tu sign masa dlm lecture je nanti.
jadi classmates aku pun berebut4 berpusu4 menuju ke auditorium untuk lecture class. while aku, terpaksa patah balik sebab botol aku tertinggal dalam class tadi.
maka, dengan speed of light aku pun jalan ala4 charlie chaplin naik class tadi cari botol. dalam perjalanan aku terserempak dengan class rep aku.

aku pun tanya : "eh, semua dah sign attendance ke?".
tanpa sebarang jawapan mahupun warning, terus die shove attendance sheet tu kat aku and kata : "kaw belum sign kan? kaw nanti pass4 dekat dorg yg belum sign,"
aku : "okay,"

maka aku meneruskan perjalanan ke kelas tadi dan retrieve botol aku.

lepastu, ala4 charlie chaplin sekali lagi, aku berkejar ke auditorium sebab takut lecturer X dah masuk.

lepastu bila aku angkat attendance sheet tu yang aku pegang bersama botol aku, aku nampak ada a HUGE stain dekat belah atas kertas tu.

MILO AKU TUMPAH DI ATAS ATTENDANCE SHEET TU. ; |

melihatkan itu, terus aku terkejut dan melompat dan panic satu macam sebab lecturer X tu boleh dikatakan, garang lah jugak.

masa time lecture, die marah ktorg semua sebab tak buat assignment yang die bagi. jadi, aku pun makin risau dan takut bila fikir pasal attendance sheet tu.

memang sepanjang lecture 2jam tu memang heart mind and soul aku tak RIP lahh sebab dok memikirkan apa nak jawab kat lecturer X. and plus aku kesian lah kat class rep nanti die pulak kena jawab. takpasal4 dia yang kena sumpah jadi mercedez dgn lecturer tu.

akhirnya class pun berakhir. aku pun mula balik restless sebab cari attendance sheet yang dikotorkan dengan milo oleh aku tu. class rep aku pun dah pening jugak cari attendance sheet tu.
tiba-tiba, melalui microphone tu kami terdengar :

"siapa yang mengotorkan attendance sheet class C ni??"

terus aku, kawan aku dan class rep tergelak-gelak. err aku tergelak dalam cemas lah.

"ni... tumpahkan coffee pulak kat kertas ni,"

"milo," aku cakap sorang4.
padahal waktu tu aku tengah berdiri depan lecturer X tu. tapi aku tak pegy pun jumpa dia. takde kudrat sebab tengah sibuk ketawa.

"ish. najis mughallazah la," lecturer X tambah lagi.

mendengarkan itu, kebanyakan student (class ABCD) ketawa termasuklah aku.
hey, offended okay bile dia cakap najis mughallazah tu. sedih aku bila dia cakap macam tu.

so the problem was indirectly solved without any solution. haha. i'm flabbergasted for nothing. tapi...
aku dapat satu pengajaran : never, NEVER bring milo to class again walaupun tak sempat minum pagi tadi waktu breakfast.

aku memang clumsy lah kat sini. dahla hari isnin tu aku sakit. hari selasa semalam slipper aku tercabut tengah jalan. hari ni tertumpah milo kat attendance sheet. esok apa agaknya? hopefully takde. ; ((

allergic? no. aku perlu berjumpa superman.

2011-06-14T22:21:00.000-07:00

pada suatu hari tu, aku tiba4 mengalami sakit muntah4 yang menyebabkan aku rasa macam taknak dan memang taklarat nak pegy kelas tutorial petang. namun aku ada dua option :

1. kalau tak pegy class tutorial, pegy jalan kaki/naik bas ke Pusat Kesihatan yang whereabout nya pun aku taktawu kat mana walaupun kawan aku dah explain 44kali. mana taknya. kalau dah nak balik bilik aku sendiri pun sesat kat sini, lagikan nak cari Pusat Kesihatan. memang confirm duduk tepi jalan tunggu orang angkat bawak pegy Pusat Kesihatan tu. Masalahnya, dengan keadaan aku yang boleh memuntahkan isi perut aku (walaupun ketika itu perut aku dah sekosong4nya sebab dah 2kali muntah, aku taktawu kalau muntah kali ke-3 tu keluar ape lagi. enzyme semata lah kot??) macam mana aku nak jalan or even naik bus pegy cari PK?

2. kalau tak pegy PK, gagahkan diri pegy class memandangkan petang itu ialah kelas lecturer yang garang dan sarcastic dan.... intimidating. (elehh sebenarnya aku takut ngn die tapi taknak mengaku ; P )

akhirnya aku ambil option ke-2.
tapi sampai sekarang aku pelik. masa aku masuk kelas tu, kalau aku pandang kat classmate lelaki jep, mesti aku terus ada storng urge nak muntah. tp bila aku pandang tempat lain, takde nafsu pulak nak muntah. aku pandang lagi, rasa nak muntah lagi.

maka, aku kemukakan kemusykilan aku kepada roommate aku.
dia jawab : "aku rasa kaw allergic dengan lelaki lahh,"

err....

"banyaklah kaw! kalau aku allergic dengan lelaki, dah tu takkan aku lesbian pulak??"

....... sampai hati dia kata aku allergic dgn lelaki =.= aku perlu berjumpa Superman. mana boleh aku allergic. ; |

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superman ?

2011-06-14T07:54:00.000-07:00

okehh. aku suka dia ni. aku suka suara dia dan senyum dia walaupun orang kata senyum Kim Jae Won lagi better. aku tak peduli. okay? *aku harap dia superman. ; (( takmo supArman. tapi supErman.

superman

2011-06-13T02:52:00.000-07:00

aku mahukan boyfriend superman version yang pakai underwear die kat dalam dan berpakaiana normal, tidak ketat. berikut merupakan sahsiah rupa diri yang aku mahukan. hihi.

mm kalau sesiapa terjumpa terserempak ataupun ter-diselamatkan oleh si superman, tolong sampaikan permohonan aku untuk jadi girlfriend die. tau. tau. jangan lupa eh.

aku tak kisah kalau die nak pasang banyak4 girlfrien pun tak apa. aku rela berpoligami ecehh haha. aku rela kalau die nak dating ngn orang lain. aku rela jugak kalau die tak sayang aku pun takpe.

asalkan... die sanggup terbangkan aku naik turun kolej, dan juga pergi balik fakulti ke kolej. aku dah puas hati. asalkan die sanggup terbangkan aku, hantar aku pergi dan balik kolej. aku tak kisah yang lain.

hmm takpelah jugak kalau die taknak terbangkan aku sebab aku berat sgt, tp at least, boleh angkat aku hanta pegy balik kolej n fakulti. aku dah happy.

haa tapi aku taknak la die ad kelemahan against kryptonite ke gold ke calcium ke sodium ke segala. sebab kang ntah tiba4 die ternmpk benda4 tu takpasal4 die takboleh angkat aku. mcm mana?

sekian, permintaan aku. ; D

2011-06-06T07:09:00.000-07:00

i'm not faring so well right here.
it's not going on as well as i thought it would be.
so don't go and bug me asking how's here.

2days .

2011-05-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

*peluk dinding bilik kuat4.

TAKNAK PEGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII T^T

even the name sounds so alien to me. how can i even familiarize myself there?? T.T

Unbreakable - Angela Aki

2011-05-14T21:30:00.000-07:00

Lying in bed, no dreams in my head
Shadows are closing in
Feeling afraid I´m losing my way
I won´t feel the sun again

A prisoner alone in my room
So tired of begging the moon

Just another hopeless night
Nobody´s missing me
Just another desperate cry
Nobody´s listening
Outside my window, one wishing star
Make me one unbreakable heart
just one unbreakable heart

Tell me I will make it through
´Cause I know until I do

It´s just another hopeless night
Nobody´s missing me
Just another desperate cry
Nobody´s listening
Outside my window, one wishing star
Make me one unbreakable heart

Make me unbreakable

Just another hopeless night
Nobody´s missing me
Just another desperate cry
Is anybody listening?
Outside my window, one wishing star
Make me unbreakable

Just another hopeless night
Nobody´s missing me
Just another desperate cry
Nobody´s listening
Outside my window, one wishing star
Make me one unbreakable heart
just one unbreakable heart

Make me one unbreakable heart
just one unbreakable heart

visiting

2011-05-04T21:13:00.000-07:00

hello dunia ; )

dah lama tak menjenguk blog ni lahaiii dah bersawang dah =.=

currently busy with all the moving in stuffs . maka kelebihan masa untuk ber-online memang sangaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttt scarce. kalau ada pun, tangan mata kaki semua rase berat. yang mampu hanya untuk tidur sajaa untuk conserve energy untuk hari esok yang aku takdapat predict.
i'm not complaining. tengah mode bersabar dan enjoy dunia nomad. it's actually not quite bad. *takdapat cari alasan kenapa die not quite bad. alahh yang penting, tak teruk mane lahh. cumaa takd tv je lahh yeah? hoho. nasib baik leverage habes minggu lepas. ; DD

cbsakhdbeubhdc

2011-04-17T09:58:00.000-07:00

adakah possible saya depressed kerana tengok drama? =.=

yelah. cte ni lah yang buat org depressed. =.= bukan depressed pasal die. tapi buat org fikir; "memang betul4 wujud ke org yg truly love kte selain family?" my answer is ? hmm "maybe no. not really""

49days ni pasal... emm... alahh cari sendiri lah. mcm mls pulak nk explain. ; | heheh. google jep. mudaah. and saya suka ini cerita sebab takpernah jumpa drama mcm ni. oh lagipun scheduler die ... ; D hehehh. kelakar.

aaanywaaaayyy. cerita ni depressing sebab smpai part die dah giveup dgn dunia smpai die nak choose death at last memandangkan fiance die jahat, best friend die rupanya ada affair dgn fiance die, best friend die care kat org lain bukan dia, ayah dia kena brain tumour, company ayah die nak jatuh bankrupt sebab fiance die nk balas dendam,..... err basically, semua aspect dalam hidup die tu ade something wrong.
emm lepas tu... tiba4 God bagi die chance utk smbung hidup kat dunia. lepastu.... HABIS. kena tunggu minggu depan hari ahad.

*pengsan sampai hari ahad.

*____*
tolonglah cepaaaatttttt. nak sambung depressed tgk drama ni. ish.

i'm back to gaming.

2011-04-10T08:11:00.000-07:00

currently addicted to this game. better than samurai warriors! hoho. ; D
meh cuci mata terhadap Masamune Date ku hoho ; D The One-eyed Dragon.

oh lupe. saya berkongsi Masamune dengan sherachaaan. hoho. ; D

Magoichi Saika! die ni memang kick-ass wohh. pakai die memang best.

yeahh Yukimura Sanada! ; D i dont know but for some reason, i like his voice. ; D

nilah Mitsunari ishida! ; D walau se-handsome mana pun diaaaa.... saya still tak interested dgn die sebab............ die terlalu obsessed dgn Hideyoshi =.= mcm annoying pulaak.

Kojuro Katakura! hihi.

"i vow not to let Lord Masamune regret any decision he has made ever again. and i vow to follow Lord Masamune 'till the end!"

ternganga Date bila Kojuro ckp cmtu kat die ; D

shera!! main lahh! MAIIIINNN!!! WAJIB MAAIIIN! awak kena datang rumah... (or kte dtg rumah awk seludup wii, itupun kalau adk kte taktawu hoho.) ; P

Anna yooii!! awak pun matimatimati kena main jugaaaaakk game ni! memang heaven utk fangirls hoho ; P ehh tp Date kte pny yeah? ; P

ohh saya jugaa sedang bermain Persona semula! as a female char hoho. just you wait Shinjiro akan ku gunting4 rambutmu kasi pendek! ; D

2011-04-08T05:13:00.000-07:00

should be so careful whom we left out of our lives for if we long for absolution, there'll be no one on the line.

....................................

4/4/2011 8PM

2011-04-05T21:14:00.000-07:00

ni damage pada kereta yang dinaiki saya.

bawah tu pecah, sensor system jadi faulty. wahh. pasti rindu ini kereta. ; | agak4 bpe lame nk repair?

ni pulak damage kereta belakang. kereta belakang ni wira.

teruk wira ni kena. bumper memang hancur. muka dia seposen jep. dah la kereta kena teruk mcmtu. agaknya haritu memang bad day dia agaknye yeah?

reaction aku pulak bila time accident tu..
time tu kereta brake so my first thought is : "selamatkan termos!!" sebab thermos kat sebelah aku tu dah bergolek4. sekali dengar bunyi kuat, kereta bergerak ke depan, inertia: maka kepala aku terhentak dekat headrest yang gila keras tu.
buat aku terfikir, ni baru minor accident mcm ni, kepala aku dah sakit sampai sekarang. apelah rasa org yg kena accident yg sampai patah segala masuk hospital tu eh? mesti lagi seksa. ish ish.

sekarang aku terfikir : macam mana aku nak pegy training? macam mana aku nk pegy drive esok? takboleh pandang kiri. =.=

; D

2011-04-01T07:34:00.000-07:00

err...
since saya tak mampu nak fikir apa4 intro yang sesuai/bermakna/yada44 kat sini maka saya akan teruskan saje dgn apa yg nak cakap.

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err but then again, apa yang nak ditaip yeah di sini? ; |

ahah. fun fact : sensei kaunseling kerjaya aku tadi . dia suggest aku amek insurancy . hoho. tersedak4 aku denga. XD aku faham dia amek insurance tapi.... jgnla promote kat aku. =.=

; D ; D

ohh! hari ni jugak aku belajar loghat kelantan. hihi. tigo amah. samah. limo ya. terbelit4 lidah aku macam cakap bahasa korea. XD but it's fun, belajar loghat negeri lain. mcm unik an.? hihi. lainkali nak blaja loghat t'ganu lah pulak . ; D

-currently not hearing any meaningful songs. maka, takde lahh lyric lagu hoho. ; ]

i wonder

2011-03-30T08:54:00.000-07:00

kawan-kawan,

; ]

hihi.

eish apesal aku rase 'hihi' tu mcm giggle org takbetul? dan 'hehe' tu mcm giggle untuk perverts. : 0
aku rase aku byk sgt tgk tv dan cartoons dan anime =.=

hmm...
aku terasa sangat amazed dgn rakan44 saudaramara aku yg ada blog. seriously. taktipu. emm.. okelah. maybe aku tipu sikit.
reason knp aku amazed?
i'm amazed at them for being able to express what they really felt, their emotions etc4 through their writings. aku takfaham macamana rakan4 boleh express apa yg rakan4 rasa dlm blog. sebab aku memang takreti buat macam tu. ; |

okehh. feeling aku nk sambung dah hilang. maka.. goodbye. ; ]

2011-03-28T12:14:00.000-07:00

i wonder if there's any words, any songs, any pictures... anything. that can express what i feel right now accurately. is there?

Good day . =.=

2011-03-15T23:45:00.000-07:00

ahh why are you in my dreams?

orang cakap kalau mimpi certain org tu means kte rndu org tu. ea? Syu yg cakap. =.=

ishh.. i don't miss you at all. ; | langsung tak.

so why are you in my dreams? go away and never come again. please. you're my nightmare.

My eyes fill with tears, so I lift my head up
I smile a little so they won’t fall
Why are you like this to me, what are you saying?
-Good Day : IU-

random

2011-03-14T05:07:00.001-07:00

aku takde benda nak buat dah. dah puas sehari main game sampai tangan ni dah lebam4 sebab masa main, remote terketuk4 kat jari several times. last4 banyak noh lebam kat tangan. ; |

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....

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tadi macam banyak nak cakap. tapi tiba4 semua hilang. =.=

takpe lahh. cuma cukup syarat nak update blog jep. hahaa. ; D

choww.

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”

But it makes me afraid little by little

I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t
-IU : Someday-

upu oh upu

2011-03-09T05:01:00.000-08:00

sekarang UPU dah tunjuk baru punyaa yang lagi lawa biar mata aku tak bosan tengok INTERNAL SERVER ERROR yg plain tak habis4 almost setiap hari. siap ada nama lagi kali ni : Apache Tomcat/5.5.28 . buat aku terdiam jap depan laptop . apa tu?? tapi still takboleh bukak.
siapa4.. boleh tolong?? ; | aku dah hampir giveup ni. =.=

akulah penternak virus

2011-03-07T06:29:00.000-08:00

inilah yang keluar baru kejap tadi kat comp aku .

report for the last 30 days :

computer : 38,464 known threats

Network : 2.640 known attacks, 0 intrusion blocked.

*macam nak cabut semua rambut aku nampak report ni keluar.

=.=

akulah penternak virus. ; | maafkan aku laptop kalau satu hari nanti kaw takdapat berfungsi seperti selalu lagi.

2011-03-05T05:24:00.000-08:00

fuuhh...

i enny you. really.

jom tukar tempat ? ; ]

ahh disappointment

2011-03-03T09:55:00.001-08:00

aku cuma mahu menjerit yang

aku taksuka ending dream high.

daaamn.

1.progress cerita pasal HyeMi-JinGuk. tiba4 akhir HyeMi-SamDong. seribu kali dislike. =.=

2.knp team DreamHigh disband and masing4 ikut haluan sendiri?

3.Knp adik HyeMi sorg jep yang tiba4 besar? ohh tapi wa sukaa die dgn JinGuk hoho.

4.knp ending dia mcm rushed?

5.knp Pilsuk jadi gemuk balik and afta popular terus jadi cikgu tadika?

6.apa jadi dgn Jason?

7.aku rasa scriptwriter changed die pny mind halfway.mulanya die nk bwt ending HyeMi-JinGuk tapi atlast pilik SamDong-HyeMi sebab tu progress cerita tak selari dengan ending. ; |

8.atlast Dream High tak High mana pun pegynyaa. semua disband.

9.Knp aku taktawu umo dorg bpe masa tahun 2018 tu? nk kata tak tua, HyeMi da buat concert ke-100. =.= mcm machaa lahh cerita ni. takfaham aku.

ahh the story at the beginning looked promising, though. rupanya disappointing jugak macam over the rainbow. =.= oh well, OTR lg 4000x stink kott sbnanye.

2011-03-03T02:37:00.000-08:00

hmm. bila setiap kali kereta ni pass by, i will find myself looking at it until it disappear out of my sight. ada satu hari tu kereta ni parking depan kedai. as a result, game aku ter-distracted sebab dok tengok kereta tu mcm kalau boleh kereta tu jadi aku punya.

i find it strange how i can't remember much from my past. like, what i was taught. events that happened. all i could remember clearly is that i'm a naughty little kid that often got scolded for doing silly things to escape from my responsibility as a student. trust me, i really hate studying back then. that much, i know. but my happy thoughts.. i seriously couldn't remember any in details.
back then, what i thought in my head for 24/7 is play and snacks. i often get sick due to consuming a lot of snacks in a day. ahh hakikatnya aku memang selalu sakit dulu4. and i really don't know how to contain my anger. i always let it out and when i can't control it, i often hurt the people around me. i would do anything to protect my pride. i can't let others win and humiliate me. i was cold and ignorant. very. ahh maafkan saya yeah Aliah. =.= dia selalu jadi mangsa. agaknya sebab tu sekarang tangan dia boleh automatic masuk defense mode yeah? hoho. but then gradually i began to control my anger, i began to keep silence and slowly i began to let others win because in the end, i just don't have the feeling to argue with others, picking fights, pointing my finger at others and all.
pernah dengar tak org cakap , biasanya kalau org yg panas baran, die cepat forgive. while org yg susah marah, kalau die dah betul4 marah, die susah nak forgive. dulu, aku tergolong dalam group pertama tu. panas baran. nobody can stand my temper. but now, i find it hard for me to just forgive others easily. ahh kesian mereka.
aku ingat ada satu time tu org tu mintak maaf dengan aku tapi aku just sengih and cakap "tak. aku taknak maafkan kaw," . lepastu aku tinggalkan die berdiri sorang4 in daze mcm tu. ahh mintak maaf kawan. tapi time tu aku memang takde hati dengan kaw. ; | and the same thing is applied for now. kpd yg berkenaan aku sorry lahh sebab aku memanggg sentap dengan kaw tahap dah tawar hati. aku sakit hati lah senang kata. and sakit hati aku tu masih tak okayy lg smpai sekarang. maybe aku maafkan kaw or kaw memang taktawu salah kaw jd kaw tak mtkmaaf. aku tak kisah. tapi do understand me bila aku berperangai sebegitu. aku mtkmaaf utk everything. ; |

cha lo bay tay. ; D

mienai koede saken deta
kanashimi ga doa wo tatai teru kara

-Pray : Wish-

hello dunia.

2011-02-26T22:02:00.000-08:00

ah aku penat.

bagi aku revert balik pada dulu masa zaman4 hati aku kebal besi boleh?

; )

i don't want to care about the world right now.

i just want to enjoy my life despite the suffering.

random

2011-02-17T01:52:00.000-08:00

hah.

RESTLESS LEG SYNDROME (RLS).

this very particular syndrome i've been suffering since i was a kid. it often occur during nighttime which, in results, disturbed my sleep. I'll wake up all of a sudden and hold my leg, sometimes crying out in pain. i've been to the doctor once, when i was 15 years old. but the doctor claimed that it's a "growing pain" where the bones and the nerves did not grow together simultaneously causing the nerve to stretch due to the growing of the bones.
at first i believed it, but then the pain still occur even until now so i thought it was quite impossible seeing that my elder sister didn't experience it anymore now.
I browsed the internet today, tiba-tiba rajin pulak nak cari pasal facts. and then i came across this RLS when i was reading about insomnia and it turns out that the symptoms of RLS is correspondent with my symptoms. Unfortunately, the cause of RLS is unknown. but the symptoms worsen during stress. aku pun takfaham apa kena mengenanya. =.= RLS may also lead to Parkinson disease. in children, RLS is often misdiagnosed ad "growing pains" . There is no known cure for restless leg syndrome.
oh makk. sekarang rasa macam nak cabut4 rambut doktor pakar tu sampai botak. hmph. =.= sampai hati die kata growing pain, mentang4 aku ni 'sangat tinggi' . ; |

"A form of RLS may be passed down in families. This may be a factor when symptoms start at a younger age. The abnormal gene has not yet been identified.

Restless leg syndrome can result in a decreased quality of sleep (insomnia). This lack of sleep can lead to daytime sleepiness, anxiety or depression, and confusion or slowed thought processes."

the best part is that most patient that suffer from RLS, often experience it especially during driving. which may lead to dangerous situation since it can distract your concentration.

haah. good. tadi aku pegy drive, and automatic, kaki kanan terus kne RLS. mak aihh die punya seksa. ; | kaki kanan sakit sebab RLS. kaki kiri sakit + penat tekan clutch. ayohh.

-Just another hopeless night

nobody's missing me

just another desperate cry

nobody's listening

outside my window, one wishing star

make me one unbreakable heart

-Angela Aki : Unbreakable-

i want you to be perfect.

2011-02-14T04:02:00.000-08:00

you're thick skinned.
you care for me too much, sometimes.
you put up with my temper, always.
you taught me how to joke.
sometimes you are so ignorant sampai aku rasa nak cabut kepala kaw.
you try so hard to please me.
you try so hard to impress me.
in fights, you purposely let me win each time.
i used to enjoy spending my time with you.
you're the only person who doesn't care about my personalities, my appearances, my attitudes. you just accept me the way i am.
i know a lot of people dislike you. and that includes me, honestly.
tapi kaw baik sangat dengan aku. dengan orang lain kaw jahat gile nak mampus mampus.
sampai aku pernah marah kaw sebab kaw baik sangat dengan aku.
lepas tu kaw respect decision aku and kaw pun hilang. and i know i don't feel any regrets sampai sekarang.

tapi hilang kaw tu buat sementara jep.

disebabkan kaw ni thick-skinned, kaw datang lagi. =.=
aku mula rasa bersalah.
tapi kali ni kaw make sure kaw tak overstep the line macam dulu.
but you never know the real reason why i have to dislike you.
*sigh.
how i wish you knew.
and then i hope you'll try to be as perfect as i want you to be.

Dream High

2011-02-11T06:31:00.000-08:00

this is what happened bila aku dah determined dgn diri sndiri utk stop buat benda yang memudaratkan diri sendiri. ; |
tapi somehow aku suka. haha. sakit mcmana pun aku suka jugak. ; D takreti serik. bila aku buat mcm tu aku rasa alive. sebabtu aku suka. ; D
boleh beritahu aku kenapa aku flip tapi jari tangan aku yang terseliuh sakit gilanakmangkat salah urat merah tegangsusahnakbend walaupun aku dah letak ice tadi ??
kan ke yang patut sakit tu kaki ke... belakang ke ape ke. tapi kenapa jari jugak?
sedang aku tengah menikmati saat aku terbang di udara (tengah lompat sebenarnya) tawu4 tibe4 aku dah landing dekat tanah and tiba4 jari aku sakit tahap karma. ; |
last4 balik rumah suruh mama urut. ; P
aku nak cari benda ni boleh? kat mana ade eh?

Secret Garden

2011-02-10T01:45:00.000-08:00

yeah. siapa tak tawu drama ni currently tgh terkenal among korean drama watchers kn? ; P

Secret Garden.

aku pernah tengok satu gazette die kat tv. and aku rase cte tu best. tajuk cte tu Secret Garden. aku ingatkan Secret Garden yang anjuran SBS kat atas ni. ; |
So aku pun pegy lah tengok Secret Garden yang kat gambar atas ni sampai mata dah macam panda.

padan muka aku salah tengok drama.

after aku dah khatam tengok drama ni, hmm i'd rate around 3.5/5 or 4/5 . tapi tak 5/5 lahh. i'd prefer Prosecutor Princess drpd drama ni.

oh well. penat aku khatamkan drama ni. baru semalam aku terbukak cte Secret Garden dekat channel u singapore.

=.=

rupenye cte Secret Garden yg aku nak tengok ni bukan cte Secret Garden yang dekat atas ni. patutla aku bersengkang mata tengok cte ni tgu episode heroin tu tolak kerusi roda yang hero tu naik turun tangga tapi tak keluar4. salah drama rupenye. ; | siapa suruh nama and design title tu sebijik. =.=

Secret Garden yang best ni singapore punye drama pasal doktor4 psychiatrist kot tak silap. yg pnting dorg ni doktor la =.= siap ckp psl serotonin hypothalamus endorphine aspergers syndrome segala penuh detail sampai otak aku trauma Bio SPM . ; | bagus betulla singaporean ni. cerita berkualiti. ; D tapi heroin die serupa macam actress Lee Na Young dlm drama Fugitive Plan B .

Secret Garden yg popular ni pulak pasal typical love story laa ape lagi. bertukar badan pastu anak org kaya tak boleh suka dekat anak orang miskin yada yada yada yada menangis bergunung44 tinggi last4 happy ending jugak. oh well. aku dah boleh predict. haha. *angkuh gilaa*. tapi adelaa gak part yg best contohnya masa semua char menanges byk4 sebanyak air laut sebab hero tu nk mati . ; D tu best.

disebabkan drama singapore secret garden tu tak popular, jadi susah aku nak cari gambar drama tu. penat taip4 kat search engine pegy kluar Personal Taste pulak apehal ntah. last4 aku giveup.

kesimpulannya, aku nak cuti tengok drama korea. nak back to basic : drama Hong Kong. yeahh. Survivors Law, Burning Flame, Handsome Siblings I, Handsome Siblings II, Legend of Condor Heroes yada4 dah tak ingat. tu zaman muda4 dulu tengok. skrg nk tengok yg lain. Chinese Paladin III dgn The Four mcm not bad. ; D yeahh. Goodbye social networking. ; D

No one knows the future. We're young, but that's okay.
-Alexander Rybak : Funny Little World-

happy feet

2011-02-09T00:26:00.000-08:00

bagi title happy feet sebab cadar katil ni tulis happy feet. hehh. ; D

kenapa?

kenapa aku tak mampu nak bukak buku crocodile tears and baca seterusnya apa yang jadi dekat Alex Rider?
kenapa bila pegang jep buku Crocodile Tears tu aku terus automatic rase kesian kat Alex Rider sebab kena manipulate mcm tu skali wlupun baru 14 tahun?

kenapa?
kenapa?

bukannya wujud pun lahai character ni. dush.

how can you be so sweet but also unforgiven?
-Blues : Where you want me-

kelakar

2011-02-08T04:01:00.000-08:00

sementara tunggu 22minute berlalu, aku nak menghabiskan 22 minute tu dengan menaip kat blog ni. since, i havent done so for like a week or so.

but really, i don't know what to talk about. heheh.

yeah i know. i've been cutting all contacts from the outside world. well, not exactly cutting but more like ignoring. it's not that i'm cruel or anything. i'm not a heartless person. i still feel kinda guilty about it. but that's all i can do to stop myself from being cold to others. chehh macam kejam sangat jep kan nak cakap macam tu. aha tulah. English words are exaggerating sometimes. but at times, it's really suitable to describe what you're feeling.

it's the fact that i'm a spoilt kid that things still havent gotten worse. right?
these days, everytime i wake up, the first thing that popped up in my head is : "i'm sorry"

yeah. i'm sorry for a lot of things recently. and i hope i can just spill it out here but i can't, sadly. haha.

tawu tak ap yang aku akan cakap each time i encountered a problem that i can't manage to solve it?

kelakar.

haha.

세상에, 제발 도와 줘요
神は、助けてください
Jumala, auta meitä
Dio, per favore aiutateci
上帝，請幫助我們
dios, por favor ayúdenos

Regardless of the age, it all hurts the same
Regardless of how young you are
We all know and feel pain

Why did you lie that everything will be ok?
The broken heart doesn’t get repaired easily

-2AM-

Gareth Gates - Say it isn't so

2011-02-05T10:36:00.000-08:00

Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five atleast we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh
I got miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again

Funny Little World

2011-01-24T22:50:00.000-08:00

kenapa otak kite takboleh terus send kat blog ap yg kita fikir automatically? kenapa mesti nak tunggu sampai dah ada kat depan laptop siap dengan internet connection baru kite boleh nak keluarkan ap yang kite fikir bila time makan tadi ??
aku harap teknologi seperti ini ada pada masa akan datang demi kebaikan generasi-generasi muda pada masa hadapan. hahahh XD

time makan jep mesti tiba4 rasa macam nak cakap itu ini kat dalam blog . ishh. inspirasi melimpah-limpah bila tengah makan. tapi bila dah diri (ya, aku sedang berdiri sebab cari signal terbaik daripada celcom broadband dekat Bukit Indah ni.kalau kat rumah bukan main laju.) depan laptop mesti dah lupa terus . ish dasar pelupaaaa . ; |

kenapa?

aku teringin nak tengok drama Malaysia, cerita MELAYU yang berkisarkan tentang lawyer4 ni. ahh kan macam cool kan tengok lawyer4 ni fight for justice? most cerita Melayu banyak focus pada LOVE. highschool love. make-believe love. then nanti WAJIB ada ilmu hitam. arghh. cerita4 ni dah banyak and dah boleh predict. then most character jahat mesti akan result pada membunuh sebab nak harta lah, nak love lah, blablabla. then nanti last-last jadi gila. ohh maaaannn. you gotta do more than that.

yelahh. aku tak tawu laa cerita mcm ni ada ke tak before ni tapi setawu aku macam aku takpernah tengok. cerita pasal lawyer4. ape yang lawyer4 buat, life mcmane yg dorg go through, dorg pny sense of justice... sebab tu most people berpaling tadah pada foreign stories mostly korean or indonesian.
macam cerita korea, Prosecutor Princess tu. cerita pasal lawyer4 tapi mainly they focus on love . boleh je. rating boleh tahan tinggi jugak .
cerita hongkong pulak contohnya Survivor's Law mainly cte pasal lawyer pny sense of justice.
Malaysia ?? ntah eh takpernah discover. kalau ada tolong bgtawu eah. ehh tapi cte Tudung Ekspres tu best ah. kelakar. haha. ; P

hmm...

i might consider being a lawyer someday .

yup. dah beberapa bulan aku consider sama ada menjadi lawyer merupakan career yang terbaik bagi aku. aku tak suka medic . aku tak gemarkan pengiraan macam kerja4 engineer or architect . aku juga tak berapa kreatif nak mencipta design bangunan-bangunan bentuk apple/hutan/istana <<(macam dalam drama PersonalTaste) . tapi aku boleh membaca dan menghafal bagai nak rak dan aku selalu nak menang dalam fights. ego/keras kepala lahh senang kata . lagipun aku mcm boleh tibe4 minat pulak nak membebel pasal justice kat depan org ramai membebel-bebel-bebel-bebel lagipun aku suka membebel bnde yg takde point.
aku pernah consider nak amek Business Law iaitu kerja as lawyer tapi takpayah adakan perbicaraan dalam courts. aku taknak pun naik court . seram weyhh. tapi mengikut path yang perlu aku amek, aku perlu amek Commerce dulu baru aku boleh belajar Law. ohh itu aku tak kisah . Econs pun macam oke jee pada aku . ; P malangnya cita-citaku tidak di-approve oleh kebanyakan orang-orang yg lebih berpengalaman dari aku. kalau aku nak amek pun, aku kena amek pure law. meaning going to court, amek bar exam CLP yada4 semua. pulak tu kena masuk f6. ohh noo. i'm not going through high school. not again. walau sebagaimana aku rindu kat highschool skalipun. definitely no aku nak kena obey rules yang takmunasabah lagi. um.. maksudnya, taking commerce is a BIG NO for me.

*sighhh*

aku pernah consider nak jadi architect or engineer. erhh tapi... i dont think i can make it sebab aku tak kreatif macam orang lain. i'm not saying that i lack confidence tp.. yelahh. when your heart says no. that means no. kn? so nak jadi apa? kahwin dengan billionaire je laa. kan mudah. ; |

orang cakap jangan memilih kalau nak cari kerja .
umphh tapi kalau tak memilih, macamana nak buat kerja whole-heartedly?nanti jadi macam cerita Prosecutor Princess tu. takpasal-pasal kena baling tomato yoo. siap masuk internet. ahh tak glamour.

ah! aku pernah consider jugak nak jadi consultant. tapi... tettt! kena reject jugak dengan orang atasan.
selain drpd tu.. aku pernah jugaa consider nak jadi archeologist oleh kerana sayang aku pada darling sejarah. tapi tak banyak tempat yang offer course mcm tu.

so far dalam hati, career lawyer tu yang dapat poll paling tinggi . yelah limpa paru-paru kulit sel darah merah semua tukang vote.

aku pernah search how it's like to be a lawyer/prosecutor/attorney . and benda tu yang buat aku fike duatiga kali untuk amek course lawyer tu.
i'm not a hardworking person. i'm not consistent and i'm not very charismatic either. but i do like to read. quite a lot. orang tu kata kalau aku bukan orang yg taksuka huhuhaha maybe aku boleh survive sebab most people sampai college baru brape bulan dah dropout sebab taktahan. aku pulak : suka huhuhaha. suka play pranks kat orang. taksuka buat homeworks. taksuka belajar 24/7. pemalas.
awhh maaaann. tu yang aku seram tu. ; |

; (
entah4 last4 i end up taking medics instead. lalala~~ who knows. duduk dengan orang mati dekat morgue tengah4 malam oh hell nooo dude.

oh God, shine me light. ; (
kena solat istikharah laa ni. ; |

__________

kenapa?
contoh :
kenapa kalau A tak reply text sebab perkara4 yang takdapat dielakkan or memang malas, orang yang textnya tidak di-reply tu mesti nak marah or menunjukkan perangai yg sekutu dengannya tu. kenapa?
adakah dengan tak reply text die yg setakat : "HAI" "HELLO" "; )" menunjukkan bahawa A tak suka dia? or taksayang dia? or takwilling nak melayan dia selama-lamanya?

ohh kenapa dunia ni pelik dan begitu banyak persoalan ??

don't promise me forever, just love me day by day
-Alexander Rybak, Funny Little World.

lucky day, perhaps?

2011-01-21T07:12:00.000-08:00

hari ni setelah beberapa lama aku kumpul lemak dengan main game dan tidur dan bekerja, akhirnya aku tiba di SIGS dalam lebih kurang pukul 2.40pm.

"AZRIIIIII!!!!!!"
terdengar suara junior4 aku yang sungguh setia dan interesting. muka mereka light up dan tersengih4 bak durian busuk. ahaha. aku pulak nervous sebab dah lama tak jejak kaki kat sekolah.

"Azri, you mana pegy? Lamanya takde,"
"uh? saya hilang," itu saja jawapan yang mampu aku berikan kepada sensei.

maka aku mula memakai tabi, gi dan belt terkial4 sebab tgn maseh nervous angkara nervous tak hilang4. haha.
ku fikir hari ni buat fitness. sebab dah lama aku tak training. haha. semata4 pasal aku nak buat fitness, ngada4 tu namanya. ; P

maka tengah seiza, aku notice blackbelt Najib. hati aku macam " ;'( "
sedihh aa sebab takdapat naik blackbelt sama4. sebab Najib ni memang rival setia aku. ; P tapi aku tak kerek mcm rival4 kaw yg lain tu kan jib? ; P
hati aku pun merajuk dan kecewa . aku pun pujuk hati aku (ecehh) : "takpelaa. slow4. nak naik blackbelt tu utk prove dri sndiri dah master. bukan nak lumba4 sape menang, kan? sama-sama belajar lahh."
maka hati aku pun gembira balik. ngada4 punya hati.

mula-mula buat training basic. and aku pun dengan tak membuang masa, SENGAJA buat kuat4 terhadap partner aku : Nabil . ; P sedap tak? sedap kan? hehehh. saja buat kuat4 sebab da lama tak mengeluarkan tenaga sebegitu utk membelasah orang. sejak tak sekolah ni, dah lama tak belasah orang. ; |

lepas tu midi pulak datang. dengan black belt.
lagi skali hati aku : ";'( "
tapi aku cakap ngn hati aku : "kaw takpayah nak ngada4 sangat. aku malas nak pujuk4 dah,"
maka hati aku pun takjadi nak ngada4.
hatta aku pun meneruskan training macam biasa.

aku ingat Najib whisper kat aku :
"Genji....!!!"
membuatkan aku tersenyum lebar44 punyaa. haha. CrowsZero beb mana tak tersengih.
tak lama lepas tu die whisper lagi :
"Serizawa...!!"

XD
belum sempat aku bagi reaction, sensei da panggil dulu.
awhh beb, aku taksempat lepak ngn kaw haritu . da lama tak bebual beb. ; |

lepas tu buat teknik yg mcm 3 against 1 tu. sampai laa da tercungap4.
lepas tu kena 3 against 1. ingatkan dapat rehat. malangnyaaaa.. ; |
lepastu 2 against 1 . ayohh. time ni da terhuyung-hayang ala4 cte CrowsZero bila dorang lawan mati-matian an. <<(taksalah kalau perasan ; ] )

lepastu kena one-on-one dengan Syaza.

ohh time ni aku dah takboleh bernafas langsung sebab stamina dah ZERO . Aku dah terlalu banyak hutang oxygen, maka lactic acid dah mula berkumpul dan mengejar aku bagaikan along mengejar mangsanya.

and aku pun tak larat nak berdiri dah tapi aku gagahkan jugaa sebab CrowsZero ajar aku jangan giveup. hahaha. takdelahh. sebab paksa kaki dan otak dan hati dan minda agar takpayah ngada4 sangat takboleh bangun, ni baru sikit.

and lepastu pun dengar sensei becakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakapcakap .

aku lupa part sensei suka cakap takberhenti ni. ; |

"ye Azri ?"

"uh? ... aa ye. ye,"

"So hari ni saya grade Azri and as of today, saya bagi dia naik black belt lahh, "

reaksi orang ramai : "woaahhhh *senyumsenyumsenyum*"

reaksi aku : *blinkblinkblinkblink* "huh?" aku dalam mimpi ke?

atlast sensei ulang balik. and aku pun macam : "woaaahhh!! nak bergolek4 sekarang boleh??" *hati dah bejogetjoget salsa + tango semua dah bercampur dah*

sebab hakikatnya aku taktawu langsung sensei tengah grade aku rupanya. sebab niat aku is untuk datang dan training betul4 untuk pegy grading black belt dgn James sensei bulan Apr May cmtu. sebab tu aku terkejut sensei tiba4 grade aku sebab selalunya memang grading dgn James sensei sejak aku 9kyu lagi. masa aku white belt jep aku grading dgn sensei . semuanya macam mimpi. wahhhhhh.

and lepas habis training aku pun pegy dekat sensei and bow cakap 'terimakasih' .

terharu tapi taksampai tahap meng-excrete air mata. tapi terharu sampai tahap nak bejoget-joget tak berenti tapi disebabkan terlalu penat maka hajat hati tak disempurnakan.

kalau aku jadi Sims kan, mesty aku dah reach Platinum Aspiration . XD

worth it aku kena tarik4 kaki tumbuk4 dengan dorang masa tu.

worth it aku kena hembus dgn sensei dulu4.

worth it aku menangis tergolek4 pasal ninja pada zaman dahulu.

worth it aku injured satu badan sampai sekarang .

worth it lahh segalanya. haha.

_______________________

and then tumpang Nabil pegy rumah Anna. *save duit tambang* haha toche toche budakk.

I spent time lazying around with my best friends the whole night with Wii . buat bising macam nak roboh apartment tu . lama tak maen ngn korang an? merepek laa apelaa semua tu.

dah azan subuh baru semua nak tido ea. ; |

tidur tu buat cukup syarat jep. untuk obey lumrah alam : "manusia kena tidur". jadi tido lahh dalam 1-2 jam jep. then bangun sambung lagi main. hahaha .

and dalam banyak-banyak game tu I fell in love dengan game TraumaTeam tu . haha GO adikberadik PERSONAAAAA! ; D

well. takdelaa adik beradik sangat. tapi dari company yang sama - Atlus !
ohh mamat yang mata merah tu... membuatkan hati aku berkata : "Bye Shinjiro" XD
and graphic die memang berjuta kali lagi better dr persona. ; |
ohh mana ada doctor yang cool lagi handsome macam tu dalam dunia ni. Games are deceiving, really .
and paramedic tu Ms Torres tu memang macho ahh.
and game detective yg paling lamaaa skali nak solvekan case die tu. sampai Nadwa ngn Anna tertidur4 yeah. haha. Dr Kimishima . wohh cool lahh die tu. mana adaa forensic yang cantik gilaa macam tu. ; |

Anna! taksambung YUME serta RP ! ; (( *sedihh .

kmoo dah menyebabkan kite nak beli Wii jugaaaakk . ; | kena kumpul duit ni. ayohh.

TAM-MAT

saya tak suka tulang .

2011-01-17T23:39:00.000-08:00

kalau ada tulang pun nak buat apa kan? saya bukan tok bomoh nak menjulang tulang tu kiri kanan.

tadi ada orang datang kedai .

A : saya dari tempat servis pemadam api. nak buat servis pemadam api.
aku : ..... huh?
A : *ulang lagi introduction tadi
aku : uh. em.

makhluk A tu dah awkward. aku paksa senyum kategori dahi berkerut. tengah takde mood boleh pulak dia nak suh aku bercakap. haram.

A : saya nak buat servis pemadam api.
aku : er.. boss takde lahh sekarang. (sebenarnya cuak tengok muka makhluk A ni creepy.kalau boleh nak halau cpt4)
*aku tak berapa ingat details dia sebab aku tengah mamai. ; |

A : pemadam api ada?
aku : uh? kejap ea.

maka aku pun berjalan ke belakang utk check sebab seingat aku memang takde.
makhluk A pun ikut aku ke belakang.

dalam hati : ish mamat nihh apesal ikut aku pegy belakang?? creepy.
maka cepat4 aku ke depan balik sebelum die explore lagi dalam.

aku : pemadam api takde.
A : takde?

aku dalam hati : kan aku cakap takde. ngok la die ni. =.=
A : num telefon bos ade?
agaknye die tanye sebab tengok aku macam blur and mati akal an.
aku : *bagitawu num bos.

immediately die terus call.

aku pun dengan kepala anginnya duduk dekat kerusi and minum air and duduk situ dengan muka toya.

A : bos kata nak beli dua pemadam api.
aku : ........ ha.
A : uh. duduk boleh?
aku : ....... ha.
A : *duduk kat kerusi.* alamat?
aku : JalanBukitIndah10/1,TamanBukitIndah
A : alamat?
aku : *annoyed.
A : nama kedai?
aku pun tolong ejakan nama kedai.
A : apa maksud nama kedai ni?
aku : maksudnya kedai kraftangan nyonya lahh.
A : crafts heritage ni maksudnya kraftangan lah ea?
aku : *mode budak sekolah yg hanya reti hafal facts dah mucul.explain dan bercakap dalam mode as-a-matter-of-fact.*
A : *gelak tengok gelagat aku meng-explain.
aku : *kurang ajar kaw gelak. aku bagi flying kick kang. ish.
A : .... alamat?
aku : *mamat ni memang sengaja nak test kesabaran aku agaknye* . jalanbukitindah10/1tamanbukitindah.
A : ...... num kedai?
aku : uh? ade num ke kedai nih? ; |
A : *gelaklagi.

*hachoom. aku bersin

aku pun dengan penuh taksemangatnya berjalan keluar tengok num kedai.
aku : num kedai 21. *bersin
A : brape?
aku : 21. *bersin
A : ..... alamat?
aku : *ish!apesal mamat ni pekakkk?. jalanbukit indah10/1tamanbukitindah.
A : *sengih. demam ke?
aku : huh? haha.
A : ....demam... kenapa tak mintak boss mc?
aku : haha. <<(tak menjawab soalan langsung)

sebenarnya dia tak tawu aku sebenarnya baru bangun tdo. dari pukul 1 tadi smpai tadi die datang tu baru aku bangun iaitu pada pukul 3. ; |
sebab tulah aku mamai and malas nak buat4 friendly and malas nak bercakap.
haha tapi bab aku demam tu memang tak boleh blaa. hehh.
woahh. haha ambil kesempatan . boss takde kan. so.. tido laa ape lagi. ; P aku dah buat survey before aku start activity ni sejak semalam.
pagi4 customer takde. biasanya customer akan datang petang starting dr pukul 3.30. so ape yg aku nk bwt dr pukul 11pagi smpai 3ptg tu?
aku amek keputusan untuk tdo memandangkan boss kebetulannya keluar waktu tu. ; )
bernas kan idea aku?
maksudnya bila aku balik nnt takdela aku rase penat and kena tdo awal. hehe. sebab aku dapat qadha' tdo. 2 3 jam pulak tu. oke la tu, kan? haha.
maksudnya, bolehla aku kembali ke kehidupan nocturnal aku semula. ; )

ahh bahagianyaaa dapat tidur~~~~
*dah tak kepala angin.

TAM-MAT

apa yang di hadapan mata

2011-01-17T02:22:00.000-08:00

ada apa depan mata aku?

=.=

hari hari aku duduk menghadap baju4 ini.

"Come! come! Buy one free one!"
kalau boleh itulah yang aku ingin jeritkan dari rumah ke rumah. macam choral speaking kitorang masa darjah 5. ; P JUMBO SALE! haha takboleh blaa.
siap ada Prinsip Rukun Negara dalam English taw. ; P

most of korang mesti cakap : "atleast ada benda nak buat. aku nihh duduk kat rumah ternak lemak jep. =.= "

tapi kalau aku suruh korang pagi4 bangun pastu pakai baju lawa4. nak?

part bangun pagi tu maybe tak berapa laa.
tapi part baju lawa tu mesti nak kan? ; D elehh takpayah malu nak mengaku.

itu jep?
tak. tak. belum habis lagi.

lepas tu dah pakai baju lawa4, dah berbau wangi4, tiba di kedai dan... sapu dan mop koridor sambil diperhatikan orang4 di restoran sebelah. lepas sapu dan mop, lap cermin sambil terjengket4 akibat terlalu TINGGI kemudian vacuum hingga ke karpet di luar. siap ada audience taw. tapi free ah audience tengok. tu yang suka tengok tu. walaupun macam takde matlamat tengok orang buat kerja membersih kan? chi sin ahh. <<(macamtu ke eja GILA dalam mandarin?)

ulang aktiviti tersebut hari4 kecuali hari jumaat. sebab jumaat anda dapat day off. tapi day off anda dihabiskan dengan mencurahkan kesetiaan anda terhadap benda lain. yang penting, you dont get to pamper yourself, at ALL. ; |

the point is, aku tak kisah korang nak kata best ke ape ke sebab atleast tak duduk rumah kumpul lemak.. tapi pada aku still, takseronok. sebab niat aku sejak sebelum aku menempuhi spm dan sebelum aku bekerja pun.. niat aku memang untuk duduk rumah dan pamper myself dan menggemukkan diri dan tidur hingga pukul 4petang dan menghadap tv sampai mata terjojol dan main psp sampai tangan bengkak4. sebab...

SAYA SANGAT SAYANG RUMAH SAYA.

jadi benda ap yang aku buat selain di rumah.. aku tetap sedih dan... sedih.! kecualijikaakukeluarkeshoppingcomplexdanborongCDdanbukudanmainandansegalanyayangakusuka. hah amek kaw. sila annoyed sambil membaca. ; D

however, despite all those things, i'm still a bit grateful. at least i'm not chosen for National Service. at least i still get to online. at least i still get to see my two little annoying yet very caring sisters. fuhh kembang kecut adik4 aku kalau baca. at least... i still have that little tiny bit of freedom left. and at least... i still have a dad who understands me and have been supporting me all these times. that's why I'm always looking forward for his return. ; ) kejap pun jadilahh. janji aku ketawa. haha.

aduhh. dah masuk bab touching. ; |
tukar topik.

my wishlist . saya harap bila saya bangun pagi, benda ni dah tersadai kat depan pintu rumah. ; | Pleeeeaaaaaseeee.

1. Crows Zero 2
2. Crows Zero 1
3. Beyblade yg warna biru siap dengan stage and launcher. ; | yang original punya taw yang RM100+ tu. kalau yang murah punye baru battle kejap dah hancur beyblade aku kang. tercampak pieces die ke mana4. ; |
4. topup RM10.00 <<(duit belanja dah habis. RM10.00 pun tak mampu)
5. CD Coffee Prince walaupun aku benci kurang gemar YEH. tapi mampu nak buat aku hilang bosan dan ketawa macam maniac.
6. A trip to Pulau Tioman or Tanjung Jara ; | I really need it.
7. agar lalat depan mata aku ni meletup to tiny pieces. pakkal kaw LAJU dan BOLEH TERBANG je tau lalat! ish aku geraam! >: (
8. Agar internet connection di Bukit Indah jadi better agar aku boleh load video online. ; |
9. Crocodile Tears. Alex Rider Series.
10. Raven's Gate by Anthony Horowitz.
11. Iphone 4 aku balik. leceh laa pakai SonyEricsson. sakit tangan menaip text.
12. taknak awak merajuk dan tak text sejak 4Jan lagi.<<(aku pulak malas nak text) leceh aa nak pujuk4 ni! =.=

so far.. itulah yang aku perlukan sekarang. banyak, kan? semuanya remeh4.
but to me, i really need it. ; |
oh! orang sebelah dah tutup kedai! nak tutup jugaaaaak! ; ((

terimakasih kerana sudi membaca. nanti tuan hamba bagi cotton candy dalam mimpi yea? ; ))

TAM-MAT

boredom

2011-01-12T02:28:00.000-08:00

hari ni hari bosan . agree ?

aku tawu budak4 pasca SPM semua confirm agree . rasa macam nak pulang ke SIGS yang dulunya selalu dikutuk oleh diri masing4 . kantin kotor makanan taksedap , kerja rumah banyak , cikgu membebel , takboleh bawak fon , kena perhimpunan berdiri cikgu membebel takberenti padahal kaki dah lenguh macam nak pakai kerusi roda , yada4 banyak lah lagi . pastu sekarang lagi rela bangun pagi dengar pn azalina menjerit4 suh pegy beratur, pakai anak tudung, potong kuku, pakai stokin atas buku lali kejar budak cabut kelas menjerit suruh prefect buat duty drpd bangun tengahari takbuat pape langsung. hari4 buat benda yang sama = kumpul lemak . kan? kan? takpe. aku faham . kita semua macam tu. ; D

hari ni aku dah siap ulang tengok CrowsZero1 , dah siap habis main satu pc game , dah siap download satu lagu , dah ulang lagu yang baru di-download tersebut dekat 44 kali , bukak lagu4 lama milik gazette , dah siap ulang lagi sekali satu playlist tu ... siang tetap belum bertukar malam . hmm. apa lagi yang patut dibuat?
kerana di sini aku masih terlupa untuk bawak senjata-untuk-melawan-kebosanan aku yang baru : drawing and painting tools ! aku lupaaaaa . ; |

Gazette suka letak PARENTAL ADVISORY dekat album dia. apesal ntah. padahal lagu dia takdelaa suka nak pecahkan eardrum telinga aku pun . sedap jee aku dengar bunyi bass tu (chehh mentang4 Reita yang main bass haha biased ) .

kenapa harini tak bercakap pasal crows zero ?
sebab...

; |

patah hati sekejap .

; |

dah. tutup cerita pasal crows zero . no comment .

ah. senang cerita , end-kan post ni jep lahh. sudah. ; ] mudah .

YNHpanelists , kono uta wa oboetemasuka ? ; ]

yang ni part chorus. part yang kitorang selalu nyanyi . yang selalu tukar shounen kepada shoujo . haha.

強く生きる少年たちよ
一人じゃない勇気を出して
突き進んだその先には
仲間と笑い輝く君がいる

oboetemasuka ?

sekarang kalau dengar lagu ni mesti tersengih sorang4.

nah. nah. translation :

I had a dream when I was a child; my predicted future map
Even now, it hasn't gone dull as I progress brilliantly ahead
As if I've grown up, I stood on my tiptoes and I saw the scenery
Though at times I feel like I've been crushed, that's why, with a lump in my throat, I break into tears

I've started running towards this one big dream
I'm able to do my best only because I have my treasured friends with me

Live strong you young girls <<(*tukar)
You're not alone, so show your courage
Push forward because at the end
friends, laughter and a brilliant you will be there.

This inaccessible road I'm about to walk down, is really a sunshine path of roses
The good and the bad, beginnings and endings, after all, if I'm gonna do it, I'll at least realize my dreams
For those who've looked after me,　for those who I love and for our hopeless selves
I'll make my level of consciousness uber HIGH, on this high road of yours

I've started running towards this one big dream
I'm able to do my best only because I have my treasured friends with me

The road we're walking down now
Although it might be defended with a high wall
Don't stop, just crash through it
And head on towards our dreams

Live strong you young men
You're not alone, so show your courage
Push forward because at the end
Friends, laughter and a brilliant me will be there.

[Dear my friends]

Crows Zero 2

2011-01-10T20:15:00.000-08:00

salah satu sebab crows zero 2 best sebab kali ni dia warna biru. hahahahaha! *takmunasabah.

saya ada berita buruk.

; [

; _____ ;

Takaoka Sousuke dah married.

; ____ ;

sedih tak? ergh.aww maan.
takpelahh. dalam cte tu izaki tak married lagi kan?

; D

oke. saya minat izaki, takminat takaoka. hahaha.
*ayat penyedap hati

semalam tidur pukul 3 lagi. tengok crowszero2 .
well, intro dia takbest sangat mcm crows zero 1. sebab takbanyak fights or kesengalan mereka.

tapi director dia make it up dengan sediakan banyak 'one on one' fights . macam ....

dududududuudududu *bunyi drum memang macam ni kan???*

Izaki vs Serizawa! ; D

then nanti adelahh Mikase vs Narumi . Izaki vs taktawu nama. dengan Serizawa vs Ryo .

kenapa saya minat itu Izaki tu sangat ah? padahal muka buruk jep kan?

ntahlaa.

suka sebab dia cool kott..?
senyap tapi berotak.
Izaki ni macam Knight kepada Genji . macam dalam chess la kan? ; ]

Crows Zero 2 mengisahkan battle between Housen High School dengan Suzuran High School. Housen High School ada grudge dengan Suzuran sebab 2 years ago, leader Housen - Bitou Makio was killed by one of Suzuran's student during their war fights.
Genji, not knowing anything as he is new to the school, accidentally broke the non-agression pact between Suzuran and Housen - the pact was made when Tamao was the leader of Suzuran. Housen leader - Narumi Taiga was waiting for the moment where Suzuran broke the non-agression pact. So a war is started.

Makise and Izaki tried hard to recruit other gangs to join GPS (Genji Perfect Seiha) including recruiting Serizawa's group. But Serizawa refused to obey. So as Kirishima and his gang - the strongest among the first years.

intermission : dalam banyak4 orang, Kirishima ni keras kepala. dia tak dengar cakap orang lain tapi dia dengar cakap Izaki. ; D Izaki memang hebat. gahaha.

there's this one scene where Izaki came to see Kirishima and helped his friend yang ikat tocang dua tu haa. Izaki ni memang anti betul ngan rambut mamat tu so dia datang dia tolong potongkan rambut mamat tu. XD ngokngek gilaa Izaki ni.

takhabes4 dengan shades dia. sepanjang movie dia pakai shades tu. nak lawan jep dia bukak. ni scene Izaki potong rambut mamat tu. XD

Kirishima said something like : "i acknowledge Genji after he defeated Serizawa(Tamao - somehow it sounds like TOMATO), but i'm not going to follow him,"

and then Izaki was like : "whatever then,"

then Kirishima was pissed off with that comment. he finally said something that similarly meant like this : "kaw ni hebat gilaa. tapi aku takfaham kenapa kaw tunduk pada Genji,"

Then Izaki bagi death glare kat Kirishima. lepastu dia blahh. haha.

*dialogue telah diubah suai .

Izaki tried to recruit Tamao's group by challenging Tamao to a fight and, as expected - lost to the fight .

Genji's dad was shot and injured, leaving Genji with great amount of stress. before that, GPS and Tamao's gang was ambushed separately by Housen High School students. At first Genji didnt do anything as he was not sure what wise action should he take to the point where their school was burnt down. It brought anger to Tokio towards Genji's ignorant attitude. Genji almost gave up but Tamao advised him at last.

Genji & Izaki

Serizawa & Genji

at last Genji cakap pada Serizawa : "show them the way of the Crows,"

; D

ni masa Genji jumpa Housen. agree for the war.

then there'll be some conflicts before the war started until Genji announced that GPS is disbanded.

but atlast they managed to gather and unify to battle against Housen.

part ni laa paling best. tengah feeling4 kan. tibe4 rupanya video tu takhabes load. dah kena tgu die load lagi. meraung depan laptop. ; |

this was their after battle. masing4 muka dah herot. haha. rambut pun dah tak style dah. tapi maintain cool. haha.

terimakasih kerana sudi membaca. ; ) nanti tuan hamba bagi gula-gula dalam mimpi anda ye?

TAM-MAT .

Crows Zero

2011-01-09T19:19:00.001-08:00

ehem.

salam satu malaysia.

ecehh. haha tak boleh blaa. oke tukar.

salam sejahtera.

pertama sekali, ingin saya mengucapkan ribuan toche kepada Aramy sebab bersusah payah nak carikan web yang masih wujud cerita Crows Zero dengan subs. tanpa anda, tidaklah saya terjumpa jantung hati saya. ; D gilo. (maaf. inilah effect duduk dalam kedai lebih 12jam tanpa bersosial dengan rakan4.) hahahh.

baiklah. kepada sesiapa yang cool yang dah tengok crows zero, takpayah gelakkan tuan hamba yang baru terkedek4 nak tengok dan TERfanatik tentan
gnya.
dan kepada yang taksuka topik perbualan ini maka sila tekan 'alt' + 'F4' . ataupun hang tukarlahh ke web lain. lagipun cerita ni bukan untuk budak kecik. ; D gahahaha. i am 18 already, know?? dah boleh tengok cerita GANAS. yeayy! ; D

Crows Zero.

starring Shun Oguri.

ahahaa. salah satu sebab nak tengok movie ni. hahaha.
tapi bila dah tengok, tuan hamba dah berpaling tadah dengan Shun Oguri ni. Sebab dah jumpa mamat COOL MACHO yang BARU. ; D

hahah. okayokayy.

In a Nutshell:
Senior toughie Takiya Genji transfers to the notoriously lawless Suzuran All-Boys’ High School. His mission? To vanquish the rival student gangs one by one and earn the title of Suzuran’s top dog – er, crow – and thus prove to his yakuza boss of a father that he has what it takes to inherit the family business. The biggest obstacle to Genji’s mission happens to be Suzuran’s strongest and most dangerous punk Serizawa Tamao and his head-bashing posse of high school hood

The characters revel in the mutual hostilities with a casualness that will turn off — nauseate, even — viewers unaccustomed to director Miike’s ultra-violent style and wicked sense of humor

Crows Zero ni cerita pasal budak4 Suzuran High School. dorang yang datang skula ni dengan nawaitu nak conquer Suzuran. kiranya nak jadi King of Suzuran. itu memang tradisi kat Suzuran. jadi, memang haram laa dorang ni nak belajar. Cikgu pun dorang main belasah jep. cool gilaa. ; D
Main character Shun Oguri as Genji. anak Yakuza. dia pegy Suzuran sebab nak outdo ayah dia yg dulu4nya takdapat conquer Suzuran.
kat Suzuran ni pulak dah ada opponent yang kuat gilaa yang almost conquer Suzuran. nama diaa er... kejap kejap. lupa. ha! Tamao Serizawa. mamat ni memang selamba gilaa. kelakar. mampus bedekak tengok dia ni punya sengal.
then dorang ni macam perang ah. Tamao ngan Genji. masing-masing lumba nak conquer skula. kelas-kelas jadi macam daerah. kelas A B C D . Kelas A ni kelas Tamao. then B kelas Mikami Brothers. C kelas Mikase. D kelas Izaki ; D . Tamao dapat conquer sikit class tahun satu and sikit class tahun 2. dorg ni 3rd yr, so senior aa kiranya. then Tamao join ally dengan Mikami Brothers, class B.
Genji ni pulak dapat class C- Mikase dengan D - Izaki ; D .
then nanti adelaa. part lawan4 semua. umph. memang sumpah cool. antara movie terbaik pernah dijumpai. hahaa. line4 movie 'never back down' . tapi LAGI cool.!
rasa terharu, marah, sedih, happy, adrenaline rush, semua ada laahh senang kata bila tengok movie ni. annoying pun ada jugak. dengan Ken si pakcik tua. hahh.

tapi ni baru CZ 1. Tuan hamba otw nak tengok CZ2! ; D ade Miura Haruma . tambah lagi satu reason nak tengok CZ2. ; D (duduk dalam kedai lebih 12 jam telah membuatkan saya jadi begini. harap maaf)

tapi cerita ni... kalau Anna Sabrina tengoookkk... saya boleh bet anda akan taksanggup nak tengok. sebab banyak sangat fights. and ganas4 plk tu.

sekarang... mari tuan hamba perkenalkan character4 dalam Crows Zero 1 ! ; D

ini kumpulan Genji (Shun Oguri). yang tiga orang tu macam panglima4 Genji laa. dari kiri; Makise, Izaki ; D , Genji, Chuta .

yang ni geng Tamao. dari kiri, Mikami Brothers, Tokaji, Tamao, Tokio *cucimata , Shoji dengan sape ntah lagi sorang. takkenal. ; | ramai gilaa panglima Tamao ni.
Tamao ni kurang asam betul. dia main bowling pakai manusia. kejam sungguh.

ni rooftop sekolah dorang. oh well. senang kata., the whole school compund looks as bad as this. kat sinilah tempat Tamao main bowling manusia . ahah.

ini budak 1st year yang paling kuat. tiga orang ni. tak ingat nama dorang tapi leader dia yang kat tengah tu fuhhh! *cucimatalagi . mamat yg pakai penutup mulut tu pun.. *cucimatadengancoolnessdia . yang mamat ikat braids 2 tu... ; | Izaki cakap dengan dia suruh potong rambut dulu before pegy lawan dengan dia(Izaki). hahaa.

haa. ; D Izaki! coolness tahap max . machoness tahap max. pandai main darts. sengal gilaa. overportective. apa lagi? kuat . carikan boyfriend macam ni boleh? ; D tapi version tak smoking punyaa. nama sebenar dia if taksilap - Takaoka Sousuke. ngehh. takpe. minat character Izaki ni jep. luar movie takminat. hehh.

terimakasih kerana sudi membaca. ; ) nanti tuan hamba bagi gula-gula dalam mimpi anda ye?

TAM-MAT .

blessings. ; )

2011-01-03T20:36:00.000-08:00

pada zaman dahulu, masa form3 saya telah berangkat ke negeri sembilan. pegy jemputan/pertandingan ninjutsu.
as soon as i arrived there i became very depressed every second although there were a lot of good friends surrounding me. but at that time, they're not good enough as i felt like i was stabbed in the back by them. (exclude billa dan abiin) ; | peh sedihh kan? haha.
maka saya text sorang bestfriend saya, meluahkan segala yang tersirat dan tersurat dalam hati [chewahh... gramatis. pn norshidah confirm puji XD].
tepat dalam pukul 8/9/10 << (cik pun dah tak berapa nak ingat dah), saya receive text messages 3 sekali serentak daripada 3 orang bestfriend saya. all three of them gave me words of courage and cheered me up.
rupanya tiga4 dah berpakat nak send message serentak. time tu macam nak TER (tapi tak) nangis pun ada jugak. tapi tak jadi sebab tengah sibuk training smpai tangan macam nak tercabut. balik dalam khemah, lumur muscle reliever yang 3 bestfriend saya ni dah hadiahkan before saya berangkat ke negerisembilan. pehh. memang gilaa terharu dengan mereka 3 ini.

in my own opinion, they are the gifts from God.
macam tak pernah jumpa 3 orang kawan yang sangat... perfect ah yg patut ad pada kawan yg perfect. ; ]

dah tak berapa ingat apa isi text tu sebab tak sempat nak save fon hilang dicuri orang. ; |
tapi jasa mereka tetap saya kenang selagi masih hidup.

conclusionnya ; saya rindu YNHpanelists. tahukah anda YNHpanelist?? ; | bila kita nak merepek 4 orang lagiiii ... ?

aku orang yang susah nak trust ngan orang. and orang yang xpandai nak rapat dengan orang. tapi mereka la yg aku trust dan aku care about.

ecehh minah, ape pasat hang ni sentimental sangat today huh? boo. tak cool betul dia nih. XP

ahah.

; [

rindu mati ngn korang.

Home

2010-12-28T23:56:00.000-08:00

hari ini saya rindu kampung saya. sebab... tadi nak pegy daftar belajar kereta boleh sesat masuk area kampung4. *duduk JB pun boleh sesat silap aa* ; | tengok4 budak4 tu main baling4 selipar, main basikal, rumah takde pagar, banyak pokok bungaa, rumah papan.

nak cari boyfriend pandai terbang ah macam superman (bukan suparman). eh tapi outfit dia tu biar aku yang design sebab biasanya super hero ni memang takde sense of fashion. walaupun aku tak reti fashion4 ni tapi atleast aku tawu laa baju kat dalam undergarments kat luar tu langsung tak cool kan? ; ]

ehem. oke kembali ke sripentas. ; |

*kena baling kasut*

okay okay aku xmerepek lagi! kasut kaw busuk lah!

selalunyaa kalau kat kampung petang4 mesti keluar rumah, lepas tu main4 ngn cousin. main konda kondi, belon acah, baling tin (sebenarnya baling slipper tapi xtawu mcmana boleh jadi tin ; ] ), main sembunyi ibu (one time tu cousin aku tengah sembunyi belakang pokok tiba4 dia lari keluar sambil terjerit4 menuju ke dalam rumah. aku pun ber ye ye kejar dia sebab time tu aku yang tukang cari. sekali rupanya dia kena kejar dengan lebah XD ), then main baseball, panjat pokok, petik bunga, makan kelapa, minum air kelapa, rebut bilik air waktu petang, etc4.

kadang4 nanti petang4 ramai4 keluar, gotong royong sabit rumput, siram pokok bunga, tanam pokok bunga, panjat pokok amek buah manggis dan jambu. best gilaa tak tipu punyaa. pastu jalan kaki menempuh monyet4 dan beruk4 yang suka main kejar4 dengan manusia ke rumah Pak Long semata-mata sebab rumah beliau adaa...... komputer! main Red Alert tak sudah4. main doraemon pun ada jugak. ye lahh sebab dulu teknologi baru berkembang jadi di mana ada komputer di situ aku juga wujud. hahaha. kadang4 pegy rumah Mak Ngah mintak buah koko. sanggup pegy belakang rumah semata-mata nak buah koko. ; D sedap gilaa itu buah koko. tak tipu punyaa.

INTERMISSION : tahukah anda koko digunakan sebagai medium untuk berjual beli sebelum duit/emas/kupang/wang pitis/etc4 digunakan? ; D

kembali ke SriPentas.

lepastu? oh! main masak-masak! mana boleh lupaa. hahahaa. amek tempurung kelapa, petik bunga4 warna-warni, tambah dengan air. ambik batu, hancurkan bunga-bunga tu. dah masak laa tu kononnyaa. kecik4 suka main masak4. dah besar xsuka masak pulak.

kalau dulu dok pike : "bila laa aku nak besar? boleh masak4 kat dapur"
sekarang : "rela aku tak makan sebab malas nak masak ; | "

tu namanya tak bersyukur. hahaha.

sekarang semua dah besar. semua dah sambung belajar. urbanisasi semakin pesat. ; | sayaa juga dah nakkataselalutakselalusangattapiselalulahjugakk balik kampung.

kalau balik kampung nanti malam4 makcik saya tanya : "esok nak breakfast apa?"
kalau kat kampung nanti tengahhari/petang/waktumakan : "nak makan takk? nak makan sendiri ke nak cik Gee suapkan?"

; |

hehe. ye. ulang laa baca ayat tu lagi skali banyak4.
bak kata Salmi, "Azri kan taksuka makan!"

punya lah malas nak turun makan. dalam kepala asek ingat nak main jep.

sekarang kampung saya dah maju. dah ada cinema 3D. ; D secret recipe. ; D tempat shopping. ; D wifi. ; D BigApple. ; D kucing.. D :

kucing tu dah beranak enam ekor. ; [
akulah orang paling tak bahagia dalam kampung tu. dunia tak lahh. sebab atleast aku tak lari sampai menangis4 nampak kucing yang jauhnya 500m drpd aku. ; P

conclusionnyaa, saya rindu kampung dan makcik saya dan nenek saya.
kalau nak pegy malas. tapi kalau dah sampai kalau boleh nak duduk situ terus. itulah kampung saya.

; D

listen dear

2010-12-28T23:11:00.001-08:00

Dia bukan sombong. Dia juga bukan peramah. Dia cuma xgemarkan perlakuan awak. Jadi dia pun xtegur awak. Oh okay maybe dia tegur tapi dia xlayan awak sangat. Hehh. Bukan dia jep yang tak gemar dengan perlakuan dan pemikiran awak. Aku pun tak suka. Tapi the way dia act dengan orang yang dia x agree dengan aku act the way dengan orang yg aku xsuka lain. Semua orang lain4 kan?

Maybe dia salah. tapi kan itu hak dia. Kat mana lagi dia nak jadi diri sendiri kalau bukan kat tempat sendiri betul tak? And dia tak sebut pun siapa yang buat salah kat dia. Oh well, dia memang macam tu. Pada mata tuan hamba, cara dia dah cukup berhemah dah kott. Jangan laa awak amek hati pulaaak. Dia cakap pasal orang lain pun agaknya awak boleh terasa kan? Dear, the world does not revolve around you.

Maybe juga awak yang salah. pernah ke awak fikir dulu sebelum nangis? Dia tak sebut langsung pasal awak tapi siapa makan cili dia terasa pedas. Siapa makan gula dia yang terasa manis. Rasanya tak payah kot nak cakap buruk pasal dia dekat orang yang dia care about kan? Kan xbaik mcm tu. Pada mata tuan hamba, awak ni macam batu api pulak dah. ; | saya mintak maaf. Tapi betul apaaa. Xtipu punyaa. D :

People’s feeling is subjective. I guess you already know that. Maka jangan condemn perception saya pulak. lagipun ini blog saya. bukan blog awak. saya tak sebut pun nama awak kat sini. jadi jangan sedih ea? Saya juga mintak maaf sebab x accept friend request awak buat kali ke-3. ; |

oh anywaayy. yang awak sayang tu kawan saya. ; P jadi selagi awk tak mis-lead dia aku xcakap apa4 lah oke?

Ampun.

____________________

oh kaw cakap sini boring ea? okay fine. i'll make your life boring.

the story of a refugee

2010-12-17T21:55:00.000-08:00

haha refugee? i say no offense. ; )

despite all this anger and discomfort i feel, despite all my toothache and my swollen gums... eh, macam xpenah dengar swollen gums. xsedap pulak tu bunyi die. bengkak gusi laa. melayu juge yang sedap.

my story.
as soon as i finished my spm (Sijil Paling Mudah bak kata James sensei).

part yang duduk dekat penang tu kita skip lahh ye. lgpun penang ade ape jep?

nasi kandar! ; D

saya menghabiskan masa saya seminggu di kampung. berseorangan bersama cousin saya. x kira sorang lah tu kan? aha. mula mula macam xberapa nak happy laa sebab slalu balik kampung ada kawan.
but then skrg kampung saya sudah maju. ; D ada wifi. ada cinema 3d.
yang paling 'best' skali;

ada kucing.

=.=

3 ekor pulak tu. itu pun lagi seekor tu pregnant kan. ntah lepas ni brape ribu ekor pun xtawu lahh.

first day dekat kampung tu...

niat : sahaja aku mahu ke bandar untuk membeli seluar kerana tiada seluar.

sebab datang sini rupanya sehelai sepinggang. bajuku semua ter-stranded di KL, bersama adik-adik-adik-adikku. in short, adik4 ku. tapi adik saya ade 2 orang sahaja. (nasib baek manusia xde ekor)

so afta breakfast gy Kluang Mall , beli track sehelai. then gy tengok itu Narnia 2. cuci mata. aha.

yang ni best.
sepanjang movie tu tuan hamba tengok sambil tutup hidung. sebab manusia kat belakang tuan hamba letak kaki die kat sebelah punya sebelah seat tuan hamba yang kosong tu. kaki die kan 'wangi'. bau kaki laa. ishh. kalau ade febreeze kat tangan tu memang sumpah aku dah sembur kat kaki die tu. saat ini aku baru nak mengakui kewangian bau glade-sport yg selama ni aku kata xwangi.

malam itu...

*sedang sedap tuan hamba tidur di kamar nendaku, tiba-tiba terdengar bunyi yang familiar. bunyi loceng. loceng kucing. mata terus shot up. tengok sekeliling. rupanya kucing tersebut tengah panjat pillar kayu kat atas tu, ready nak terjun ke bawah. bawah die tu... tuan hamba lah mangsanya. =.= serabai punya kucing.
maka tanpa sebarang warning, (bygkn kucing cakap : "aku nak terjun ni. nak terjun ni taw!" ) kucing tersebut melompat di atas tilam tempat tuan hamba baring. baik4 tengah baring, automatic terus terduduk and jugak, TERbising. << (reflex action yang wajib untuk perempuan) and mak cik tuan hamba pun terbangun. dia pun amek kucing tersebut dan meletakkannya di luar bilik.

oke. situation is under control.

maka tuan hamba pun melelapkan mata semula.

[ulang * around 2 3 kali. tukar ending yang terakhir dengan : mak cik tuan hamba akhirnya mengejar kucing tersebut dengan penyapu lidi]

waktu itu pukul 4 pagi. maka lepas tu tuan hamba tidur sampai termimpi-mimpi mak kucing tu beranak, lepas tu banyak sungguh kucing4 di sekeliling tuan hamba.
ishh. nightmare betul kucing4 ni. =.=

________

esok pagi bangun,

niat : sahaja aku memakai track baru kerana jakun.

dengan happy nya sebab seluar baru an. sekali lalu depan seekor lagi kucing. die kejar.

WTH?!

makcik tuan hamba sudah berdekak4.

setiap kali tuan hamba jalan, die mesti kejar, nak terkam kaki tuan hamba.

rupanya kucing tu suka dengan seluar tu sebab track tu kan bila jalan bunyi4 kan. ishh. lepastu terus tukar seluar. niat akhirnya dibatalkan.

cerita sedih je aku nak kongsi.
cerita best nanti nanti je.

regards.
AzriyanghebatmengalahkanGrathheosKingOfTheSeadalamYsSeven.

finally : )

2010-12-15T02:10:00.000-08:00

hello rakan rakan rakan rakan. (in short : rakan4)

maafkan tuan hamba kerana terlalu malas nak update blog ini. kadang jealous lak tgk org laen ye ye update blog siap begaduh ngn adik kakak sbb nk habeskan satu post an. : |
saya pula....

*tgh tym nak update blog*

tiba tiba Azri Aliah muncul. "dik, nak on9,"

"oke, nah," tanpa berfikir panjang teros tutup save as draft pastu... bye4. smpai hari ni pun haram xsambung-sambung. heehee.

oh, nak cakap :

saya berjaya menyelamatkan shinjiro drpd mati. ; D

ahhh bahagianya duniaaaa.

; D

; D

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____________

alright.

ini merupakan incident apabila anda bergaduh dengan adik kecil anda yang memang sedang angin dengan anda :

Azri Nadiah berjoget tango keriangan apabila berjaya annoy Azri Haziqah.

Haziqah : KAK DIAH GAJAHH!!

Azri Nadiah, Azri Aliah serta Azri Amirah serentak menoleh ke arah Haziqah. *blinkblink* terkejut + xfaham motive budak ni cakap mcm ni.

Azri Nadiah : Huh?? .............so? (bnde tu sepatutnye menyakitkan hati aku ke?)

Haziqah : KAK DIAH GAJAH PALING BESAR DALAM DUNIAA!!!!

dengan penuh geram dan benci die mnjerit. saya tetap blur dan xfaham.

monolog dalaman : patutkah aku marah? aku sepatutnya marah ke sekarang?? tapi aku rase benda ni kelakar laa. jadi... aku nak ketawa lahh.

akhirnya haziqah ditertawakan oleh kakak kakaknye . hahahahahaha.

maka itulah yg akan terjadi sekiranya anda bergaduh dgn adik kecil anda. macam xde point kan? hahaha. so what kalau aku gajah? kalau saya gajah, die pun gajah jugak. dah tentu satu species kn? hahaha. budakk,, budakk.

2010-07-17T02:44:00.000-07:00

I've been hearing to Josh Henderson's songs. I think that he have a nice voice and kinda good looking. I mean, he has all the package to be a singer, or an actor. Only that it's hard to find his songs, I have to download it from youtube itself since he's not very popular. but i think he is a promising newcomer. : )

2010-06-12T02:39:00.001-07:00

Give me one good reason kenapa everytime saye ingin menaip blog, di time4 yg crucial iaitu melepaskan segala thoughts and emotions, mesti internet transform jadi lambat kalah buku cerita Darren Shan <<(*selamatkan diri before kena baling ngan Darren shan punye fans* maaf. maaf.). ini pun kena type kat yours faithfully, MICROSOFT WORD. Xde feel betul. Apedaa.

Dear you,
It’s like I do not know who you are anymore. Nampaknya kat sini la fullstop. So hopefully, jangan cari ini Azri lagi. Because I’m ready to let you go. Explanation panjang4 pun xguna. So, jangan tanye, alright? Live with your life and I’m with mine. Thanks for all your deed to me. Selamat jalan.
Azri

Ahaha. Dear John letter ye cik Azri? Bla la. Suka hati lah bukan awk yang nak kena taip. Kalau xpuas hati buat ape baca.

: )

2010-03-29T00:36:00.000-07:00

kakak aku mengaku syndrome down.
bwahahaha.

die makan double decker yang bentuk die mcm super ring ue kan? then die before die masok mulut die tny; "ni bentuk ap?"
aku malas nak layan sebab tgh melalak lagu CNBlue. then die kate; "donat,"
then aku xlayan. pastu die keluarkan lagi,
"ni bentuk ap?"
then aku xlayan lagy.
"bentuk donat,"
aku xlayan lagi.

sampai la nak lebih 10 kali die ulang, aku xlayan4. then die kate;
"xpenah dpt kakak syndrome down kn? xpe, aku bagi kaw experience,"
"experience hotak kaw,"
then tros begelak an.
"kaw mengaku siot syndrome down!"

_____________

oke dah tutop cerita. conclusionnye, die mngaku syndrome down. =.=

_____________

27/03/10

hari ni SIGS ade hari PIBG ngn amek anugerah kn? saye x datang kerana ade demo kat UTM sempena konvo.

demo team (cam gempak lebih jep bunyi) ade 9 org : Azri, Fara, Ezyan, Najib, Hamidi, Alep, Aramy, Addirul, Helmi.

sensei suh dtg pagi4 kat UDA pukul 8, suh training demo jap b4 pegy. bas dtg amek kat UDA pkul 1230.

pukul 6 pagi;
adik aku Amirah kejut ngn muke ngntok die ue. aku bangun then glare kat die;
"apesal kejut pagi4?" ngn tone marah aku betanye.
adik aku blur4.
"ntah," die jawab.
"pegy tanye mama knape kne kejut pagi4," aku cakap.
Mira pn pegy laa tny mama. xlame pastu die dtg balek,
"kan ade ninja?" die tny.
then baru tersedar : "ouh. haah,"

blur pagi4. sheeshh. xbagos.

then datang pagi4, ngn tabi xpakai lagi, xterurus aa senang kate. xlame pastu sensei dtg. then die kate;
"lari 3 padang,"
mak aihh. maka aku pn kelamkabut menyarung stokin ngn tabi. pastu turun padang lari meredah lopak dan lecak (aku mengelat lari 2 padang saje). dalam hati da menyumpah4 sebab xpasal4 kne join training UDA lak. maka dengan free, tabi, stokin dan seluar kena lumpur4 ue sume. stokin kne sebab tabi saye yang almaklumnye lubang depan kan?
"mcm mane nak pegy demo nnt, baju da kotor sume. =.="
afta lari padang, training demo skejap. pastu habes training pukul 10. ktorg pn pegy duduk kat medan minum air dan menjemur tabi dan stokin yg basah. desperate pny pasal. sampaila pukul 12. pastu jalan balek pegy skula UDA ue then bekumpul kat situ.

pukul 1230, bas UTM datang. ktorg pun naek.
then ktorg pn sampai sane dan mencari tmpt kumpul. demo start pkul 2 tp ktorg smpai awal. denga4 cte byk team yg tarek diri bwt demo. TKD, Capoeira, silat segala yg gayung cekak ue.
sape xtawu capoeira ue ap, ni haa :

then makan. afta semua tu, bwt demo. da la dekat tgh panas, naek atas mat tu rase tapak tabi tu mcm boleh cair. [fara bwt demo ngn alep, cucuk ninjato(pedang kayu hitam ue) dekat mat yg dijemur kat tgh panas tu sampai belubang] habes bwt demo, org UTM ue kate nk hnta ktorg balek pkul 430 nnt. so ktorg ade mase nak maen. hehe. guess ah ktorg maen ap.
benda ni haa. xtawu la name die ap. double beca kot?

ktorg maen keja4 pakai benda ni. klaka. ade brake ue sume mcm bawak kete tp kne kayuh mcm basikal. haha. best aa maen bnde ni.

then pukul 430 pn ktorg balek UDA, and pastu aku balek umah. sampai rumah terus mcm nk pgsan kpenatan. bukan sebab penat demo, sebab penat maen. wahaha.

tym balek dalam bus.

What lies beneath

2010-03-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

lagu meaning die ni, sgt... best. aha.

part die scream paling best.

saye suke BreakingBenjamin. ; ))

tears

2010-03-21T02:58:00.000-07:00

14th April 2010 - album 'Last' by UVERworld will be out.
ouh fantastic if i can buy it. T_T forget it laa. dwnload kat intenet sajee la jawabnye. sighh.

Formative test 1 2010 form 5,
who would believe me if i said i haven't study anything yet?

heehee.

that is the ugly truth, ladies and gentlemen. i just cant bring myself to open the book and stdy!

I went to MPH and finally, i was able to buy 'SNAKEHEAD' from ALEX RIDER series and was sooooo happy to finally able to complete the whole series. then suddenly my sister approached;
"da kumpul semua lapan4 buku?"
and then i frowned.
"8? 7 laa. last snakehead,"
and then my sister pointed to a banner in front of me;
there appear another one, [hopefully it's the last one] 'CROCODILE TEARS'

melihat gambar buku tersebut, it immediately become; 'AZRI's TEARS'

T_T

Anthony Horowitz just love to make me suffer.
I looked for the new book but couldn't find it anywhere. baru keluar la kot...

ahh damn it.

tu la yg xbest bile bace buku bersiri nihh. ayoo.

I just hope that I can just ignore you like the others. and i'm trying. wish me luck.

a little piece of words

2010-03-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

happy birthday, boss. ; ))

sorry, aku xbagus ayat mengayat ni.

terimakasih for everything that happened all throughout my life upon meeting you. (tgk, english aku da tunggang tebalek)

since... aku xtawu cmne nak contact kaw, so tules jep laa kat blog yeah. ; )

School=sekolah

2010-02-14T23:31:00.000-08:00

ahh yep. school life. bila rase cam nak benci kat skula, teringat yang this year is going to be the last year in school. haiihh. with my height of 145cm, betul ka umur saye 17 tahun?? =.= xmcm pn.

I'm pretty sure that our 'beloved' Pn Azalina will be back afta CNY. pagi4 lagi anda akan mendengar suare beliau yg sangat nyaring and annoying. << (Maaf, cikgu. kutuk harus)

ape yang biasa ada mase awal4 sekolah?

ah yep.

Sukantara / latihan sukan.

orang msty xpecaye kalau aku kate aku rumah hijau. yeah. hijau. bukan biru. memandangkan saye telah memakai baju berwarna biru since form 3 smpai sekarang, and xpenah pakai baju hijau, jadi dorg pn igt aku rumah biru. sampaikan mase dtg training hari sukan, pakai tshirt ninja, xpakai tshirt sukan pn. oh well, rumah hitam. kan gempak sikit.

oh well, actually aku bukanla seorang yg rajin nak attend latihan rumah. percayelah kad merit demerit aku telah mempunyai 50 demerit sbb xdtg lthn sukan. wahaha. merit satu ap pn xdpt lg. malas ah nak mintak4. to me, merit demerit ni mcm merepek jep. walaupun da 50 demerit, still xserik lagi, xreti4 nk dtg latihan. padahal timbalan pengerusi duduk kat sebla. wahaha.

Leonie : "Aren't you going to come for latihan sukan? for the last time?"

nasib baik aku bukan rumah merah. kalau x sure4 da kena pancung ngan aisha.

and so pada hari terakhir latihan rumah merah dan hijau, aku pn memunculkan diri.

Aisha : "Kaw meh ar join rumah merah. kaw amek attendance kat hijau tp train ngn merah. kn kite same4 pakai baju hitam,"

time tu aku dan aisha pakai tshirt hitam. yg laen semua pakai baju rumah sukan. mentang4 da form 5, suke hati jep nk bwt ap.

maka aku pn pegy ke latihan rumah hijau. bad day betul nak pilih hari latihan. hari tu kena lari 100m. =.=

at last sukantara aku ponteng. wahaha.

__________________

thank you, God.

2010-02-06T06:10:00.000-08:00

I got a hectic life over here. I'm sure my friends are the same, too. but hey, for now there's nothing else except school, study and homeworks to worry about. I can smiiiiiiiile widely to the blue blue sky, gaze at the moon, stars and the black, black sky.
macam mak saya kate : "try to put a smile on your face, you'll look 400 years younger,'
aha. mama nganjeng xagak.

so, i decided to spend the whole day today on homeworks. Now, let's see how it turned out to be :

1st attempt.
keluarkan semua homework4 yang perlu disiapkan. 10 minutes after...
pintu bilik terbuka, seorang budak kecik bernama Azri Haziqah masuk dgn kertas, colour pencil and buku origami.
xlame lepastu....
"kak diah, can you do for me penguin??" with her tiny voice die hulur kertas ngn buku origami tu. dengar name penguin, mcm best jep. so I do it.
afta siap... smbung lg bwt homework. 4 minutes later...
"Can you do for me rabbit?"
"don't want. I want to do my homework,"
"; (( but later the penguin have no friend, how?? later he sad. ; (( awww." budak kecik tu buat cte sedih.
"ayooo. you aa. last eh. don't ask me to do anymore,"
maka saye buatkan rabbit untuk die. right after siap buat rabbit;
"Haa! I know! do the crab for me!" she said with a big, big smile on her face. I look at her.
"Haaaaaaaa you said this is the last!"
ziqah sengih mischiveously.
"hehe. no... this is the last. you do the crab, then no more already,"
"xnak! later I do crab then you ask me to do the bat laa. badut laa. apelaa. don't want!" i did tantrum like a small kid it made ziqah laugh.
"alaaa. do for me pleeeeaaaasee~~~~"
"xnak!"
pastu budak tu buat muke sedih 44sen.
"Then you colour for me the rabbit. then you don't have to do the crab for me,"
=.="
apelaa nasib.

2nd attempt.
amek pensel nak buat homeowork, pastu...

lagu TaeYang - Where U At bedering. ade org call.

"hello?"
"dowh, GD kalah! die kena masuk jail!"

=.="

pasal tu jep ka kaw call aku?

"ooO. hahahaha. padan muke GD," dgn penuh sabar melayan kerenah rakan sorang ni. dush.

3rd attempt.
jawab satu soalan Addmath.

Lagu Look At Me - TaeYang bekumandang dalam kepala. pastu terflashback pulak mv die.

tbe4 terase tempted nak bukak laptop, dnga lagu.
maka bukakla comp, smbil4 tu bukak intenet skali.
haa pastu start aa download sane sini. then, baru tesedar diri. homework belum siap.

siiiiighh~~~

baring jap kat katil, rehat. pastu...

dozed off until 5o'clock.
=.="

4th attempt.
nk bwt module Bio. kluarkan buku, cari jawapan.

Lagu TaeYang - Where U At bekumandang lg.

"aku da dpt fon. hehe,"
Azri Aliah berkata4. maka berbual laa smpai dlm 1/2 jam.

5th attempt.
stare kat testpad, nk bwt sejarah.

hari ni ad cte ape ah? belum trun bwh tgk tv pn lagi...

and so I go downstairs, and watch tv. until 9. hahaha.

da pukul 10, selamat tinggal homework. hahahahaha. I'm doomed.

2010

2010-01-19T07:45:00.001-08:00

officially,

life sucks

a LOT.

there i go

2009-12-15T08:02:00.000-08:00

alright. once again.

arena 37c.

aku naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakk. =.=

Kai xkan jadi se-adorable ini:

tapi seganas humungousour. haa. sape tawu ape bende humungousour tu?? hahaha. ni haa.

yeah. Ben 10 Alien Force. or okay, mamat ni dekat Alien Swarm.
i mean, I'm a huge fan of Ben 10. no more ultraman and kamen raiders. but there's still power rangers. hee. I went to the pre-school section in the bookshop and took 3 different cover of Ben10 book that is one for me, one for Mira and one for Ziqah. Little did I know that it's a colouring book. oh well, it thought it's a mag. but when thinking back, do pre-school children read mags??

yeah. memang 1 package. UVERworld and Gazette, both close-up articles. unfrotunately, kan bagus if aku reti and faham Japanese. ;_;

and I noticed that ini manusia sudah ade daging. hahaha. I mean, he's not all aneroxic anymore. I think he finally gained his weight. and rambut dia mcm dah pnjg. sikit. meanwhile...

although his new hairstyle rocks... there's just something off pada mata aku. he should stick to smiling and talking about the dimple period. haha.

4SC1

2009-12-09T02:29:00.000-08:00

okay 4SC1. this is sincerely and apologetically from your very very very terrible x-boleh-harap punya treasurer. this is an announcement. pass to other 4SC1 alright?

for my whole life I've never collected any duit kelas from you guys, so we don't have money. right? and evrytime we need money, I'll be the petite ALONG demanding money. but i know some of you didn't pay for it. oke, so since I don't want people to cop me as 'makan duit', therefore...

duit kelas yang ada sekarang cuma about RM7.90 so it's impossible to divide it and give all 35 of us respectively. so... if anyone would want to claim anything... for class's decorations or worksheets or ape ape jep laa. please tell me. I'll claim it back to you. haha. note to everyone : never let me be the treasurer cos I don't love money. ; ))
so for the RM7.90 I was thinking, nak derma kat kebajikan. agree?

holiday? er..

2009-12-05T19:33:00.000-08:00

glad everyone's having a good time for holiday.
I'm stuck at home, kumpul berat badan. I'm not surprised if people say I look fatter next year. sigh... sure. with no training at all for this whole school holiday, and an injured left leg as well as left arm, I don't think I prefer jogging in the morning. oh well, I will if there's a treadmill in my house.
I watched ninja assassin. and keeping in touch with one of my friend makes me feel envious. she did a lot of activities this holiday. and me... =.= makin gemuk adelaa.
and sure, everyone's talking about new moon whenever they call me. even my guy friend. =.= alright. I tried taking interest in that saga but... too cheesy for me I can't take it. and [jangan baling aku dgn kerusi] I don't think Robert Pattinson is cool and gorgeous. no offense guys.
I spend my time playing sims everyday. watching Ben10 every morning and... sweeping the floor.
Sorry Jagung, didn't respond for your invitation, I run out of kdt. hahaha. mcm mane kdt limit RM200 pun boleh habes setengah bulan pn xtawu laa. nmpk noh suka membazir kdt.
4 SC 1, I missed wreaking havoc in class. dah lama xbuli Jagung. If I have to change class next year, I'm gonna miss all those bullying. haa.

Shira, Kanashimi wo Kitto UVERworld sedap. try ah denga. tp tetido ar jugak if denga.

FINE

2009-11-22T21:27:00.000-08:00

fine laa makcik. kaw suh aku buat cmtu, aku buat. tp skrg aku merapu xde benda nak buat. =.= pecayelah sims tu bosan walau bpe banyak kali pun aku try motivate diri aku mengatakan sims tu best sebab boleh tuka4 baju, buat4 rumah.... =.= not working. nmpknye aku xberminat main tuka4 baju, buat4 org, adjust mata dia sampai jadi besar macam sang bugsy kat umah ni. or name sebenar die bobo. and... aku rindu headbanging. lame da xbuat keje xbagus mcm tu. aku da lame xdenga lagu hard to the core yg blh bwt kepale aku ditolak kuat oleh itu org bername Azri Aliah. ye makcik, kaw patut bersyukur aku xbukak lagu4 tu lagi sebab hormatkan kaw yang tengah bergasak ngan SPM.
aku find that sangat senang untuk aku xsuka orang, sesenang minum air. and senang untuk aku fikir ape yg aku nak fikir. and sekarang senang untuk aku jadi pelupe. "sebab rajin sangat denga lagu hardcore," bak kata Azri Aliah. agaknye laa. tapi skrg aku xdenga lagi. takat lagu breaking benjamin tu... alahai ape sangat die pny rock.

sekian, terima kasih.

'allow me to mock defense. step into the night'.

; ))

2009-11-18T16:00:00.000-08:00

aku masih aku yg dululahh.

xchange lg.

aku masih suka yg ni :

aku kawan ngan semua org. semua same rata jepp la. xyah ar pk lain4. kan bak kata abin; 'lebarkan sayap anda'. kan? tapi org mesty kate aku lupe kawan lama, xkenang budi, da lain yada4. tp sbnrnye xlain pun aa. cume skrg mcm da lain kelas, jadi banyak masa diluangakan bersama classmates. maybe aku jadi passive ble tgh lepak same4, tp mmg serious aku xtawu nak ckp ape nor buat ape.

sekian, terima kasih.

and suddenly i loathe you

2009-11-14T22:33:00.000-08:00

from nothing to hate, from hate to loathe. what's worst?

all of a sudden, aku macam xsuke, menyampah, sengal, bengang, geram and segala ah dengan kaw. aku xsuke bnde yg berkaitan dgn kaw. denga name kaw pun aku xsuke. kaw merupakan antara salah satu punca hidop aku messed up this year. aku pun tawulaa. semua org pun tawu. kaw tu impostor. so xpayah nak buat muke bangge, nak kerek sangat la beb. kalau aku buat group, cukup jep nak betah kaw. bla. bla. name kaw pun aku xsuke nak denga, apekan lagi nak tengok kaw. xpayah nak buat baik ngan aku sebab aku xnk jadi mcm kaw.

; )) ; )) ; )) ; ))

aku mmg xsuke gaduh ngan org. tp stp org pun ade had kesabaran. aku malas nak betah4 sebab aku malas nak buat commotion. tp jgn pike aku diam, aku xrase pape. xpayah nak hipokrit ngan aku. aku tawu kaw dgn group sndiri pun hipokrit. wlupun aku hipokrit, hipokrit aku lagi hebat dr kaw. faham.? ; ))

enjoy your life while i watch and mock.
gahaha.

sebelum aku reput

2009-11-13T04:37:00.000-08:00

exam habis. yess. tapi result memang teruk. sc2, ucapkan selamat datang kat aku cepat. =.= admath aku memang hoyeah hoyeah fail la xtipu. aku xdpt paper lg pun aku tawu. xyah tny cmne aku tawu. diam kaw. aku xnk denga yang memang salah aku sebab aku xstudy. hey. bukan slh aku. aku tertido time bace sejarah. pukul 3 pagi. memang la ngantuk. caffeine dlm coffee pun xley lawan aku pny ngantuk.
lately ni, aku slalu marah org. baran xpasal4. maaf siape4 yang kena. tapi farah, aku puas hati dpt tendang kaw time aku nak amek balik belt aku. hahaa. best weyh. da la time tu aku memang tengah marah ngan cikgu kat bilik QM ue.

incident bilik QM :

aku xtawu cerita sebab aku lmbt dtg training. Anna ngan Ezyan pegy amek mat dalam bilik QM, da mtk permission cikgu. cikgu tu angguk, bagi. fine ah.

tibe4 cik julie dtg, mrh4 tny asl ktorng main amek jep mat. cikgu baru tu yang kate ktorg main masuk, amek mat, xmtk permission. cikgu tu memang berbelit ah. lain kali if jumpe cikgu tu dgn ular, pukul cikgu tu dulu. sebab die lg putar belit dr ular. kan? kan?memang time tu ktorang meresap habis. pakal cikgu jepp. kalau x agaknye da kne maki ngan dak4 ninja. Najib, kaw memang disaster ah kalau dtg gs. hri tu kena halau ngan Pn Tan. then kne marah cmni. ape ah lagi b4 ni.

owh, meh laa same4 doakan aku boleh terus smbung ninja taon dpn ea? participate itu ini. kalau x, x ke black belt aa by the time habes skula. xnk xnk. tadi sensei gelak mati an kat aku. siot ah. aku tawu ah kicking aku buruk. standard aa. die xpenah aja aku kicking yg pelik4 ue semua. time TKD aku training la gak. tp mcm kepak ayam ah kaki aku. (jangan gelak sekarang)

__________

*garu kepala*

owh. satu benda.

1 thing yg aku mmg xphm ngan bnde4 perkhemahan ni. xkisah la yang musang terbang (flying fox) tu or abseling or yada4. tapi....

night walk ...??

ape purpose die buat nightwalk sbnrnye? sebab nak takutkan org?? sebab nnt time perang nak perang same4 ngan pontianak?? <<(extract dr blog Azri Aliah). tah pape ah org Malaysia ni. night walk ni bukannye bwk effect pun. konon4 nk bertahan dlm gelap. nnt nak pegy dapur kat umah pun mintak org teman. xyah laa susah4 nak buat bnde4 cmtu.

sekian, terima kasih.

sweet sacrifice

2009-11-06T08:24:00.000-08:00

ehm...

saye... mintak maaf.
dekat... mostly kamu. then dekat kamu tu yang sane tu gak. and... dekat kakak saye yang annoying itu... then... dekat semua org sekeliling.

saye tawu saye banyak buat hal lately ni. tapi saye blaja things bila saye get into trouble. bukan nak bangga or suka. tapi at least relieved bila dah learn things.

saye juga.... mintak maaf deeply deeply pada Yume Panelist.

sebabb....

boleh xperasan mak kami yang menjaga kami di sekolah da nak pegy.

kenape boleh lupa?

I've lost sight of everything that used to give me strength dulu. bukan dulu. 'til now.

life is now nothing but an empty shell.

saye ingat dulu4 saye xpeduli dunia and bejoget4 kat padang sekolah dgn kawan4 saye. kami bahagia walaupun orang kate kami syok sendiri or bajet or even, nerd. biar aa. cakap aa pape mereka nak, tapi kami bahagia dalam dunia sendiri.

the sweet 15teen. the joy of having a friendship.

kenapa this year...

banyak orang yang leave??
banyak orang yang dear and taisetsu na leave.

kadang4 sampai xtawu nak bagi expression camne.

cik salmi.
dulu saye xngam langsung ngan die. tapi die byk tolong saye dulu4. die byk knock senses into saye, so that saye boleh stand strong tahun lepas. macam mak saye kat skola. datang skola memang aim aku nak jumpa ini org same itu Anna serta Atira.

maybe saye bukan saye yang dulu. maybe saye xhangout ngan kamu semua lagi. tapi saye xlupe hutang budi saye kat mane.

'i would give anything to turn back the time'.

yet bila pk balik... sure ke nak turn back time? at that time, ktorg semua xtawu yg that year is the last year ktorg same4, kan.? then bila da tawu? bila wish anda di-grant, xsemuanye going on as planned.

chakuey dan cikong

2009-10-30T04:57:00.000-07:00

Adam Haikal??

"siapa adam haikal?"

aku tanye kakak aku.

"Adam Haikal. die macam terkenal killer kat myspace,"

aku terdiam bila dia jawab gitu.

"Err... terkenal ka? aku xkenal dia pun...."

hahahh. yela. xkenal la seyh siape itu Adam Haikal. n moreover, ape yang aku kisah.

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move on. exam 1 week dah khatam. aku macam terdengar chakuey dan cikong panggil4 aku. memang betul4 aku kempunan sungguh. exam... bile kaw nak habiiiisss????

Siti Nur Hidayah Abd Kadir.
2000-2009

aku pasti rindu kepale gila kaw. <<(xley blaa pny ayat; pasti)

eh eh. bukan die meninggal laa. die meninggalkan sekolah. 2000-2009 tu merangkap 9 tahun aku sehidup semati ngan die. time dulu zaman muda4, aku promote arithmetic mental kat die since aku macam otai killer ar kat skola. then aku stop, die pulak yg otai, smpai sekarang. aku xkan lupe die suke cari gaduh ngan aku. time die suh aku break ngan fatin sebab die xbg aku scandal ngan org lain. aku igt aku ddc8 lgu 'My Baby You' by Marc Anthony kat die. and... aku juga xkan lupa smpai bila4 bhw walaupun die kadang4 suke mencabar kesabaran aku, die jugak telah aja aku physics, math, addmath, bio dan lain4 subj lagi. dia juga merupakan seorang monitor yang sungguh hebat. aku memang respek kaw la dayah.

maybe aku bakal kurangkan blogging. memandangkan life aku sekarang macam tunggang terbalik ter-upside down, segala information merupakan secreto d'amor. wth?? start ar merepek, terjangkit penyakit kakak aku. =.=

hari khamis semalam aku kne simbah air ngan budak4 sekolah rendah. Tasha dr jauh da bdekak xhabes.

"BAAAAAAAaB**********!!!!"

aku jerit.
amek kaw pak cik guard yg tak pernah4 nmpk aku bercakap mahupun mengeluarkan suara tiba4 mencarut boleh tercengang and xberani dekat aku lagi. mane xnye, tgh4 panas terik habis baju aku basah termasuk kasut sekolah aku yang sepatutnye warne putih tapi dah bertukar warna hitam sebab da lama xbasuh. ooppsss. diam4. jgn btawu org.

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exam bio serta math memang sumpah susah aku xtipu. tapi aku xnak ckp pasal exam. sebab aku sakit hati.

maka, bagilah aku berbual merepek kat blog ni utk post kali ni sebab aku xsure mcm mane aku nak blogging lg.

ape yang anda rase ble anda rase mcm the whole world is against you?
kawan jadi lawan. lawan jadi kawan.
apart dari itu, ntah. da lupe.

sekian, terima kasih. salam hormat.

A+

2009-10-23T21:52:00.000-07:00

apa yang anda buat if anda xboleh concentrate buat satu ape pun??

aku pun xtawu ape nak buat. haihh. bnde yang boleh buat aku distracted dr berfikir cuma bila denga lagu. ahaha. nnt exam tulis ar lyric4 yang aku tawu kat kertas ue. confirm4 dapat 0%.

exam...
aku ade satu tips untuk senang dapat A++++++++.

materials and apparatus : beaker, 4 ml of water, bunsen burner, wire gauze, scissors,

erhh.... sbnrnye nak buat mcm experiment. tapi aku xreti buat experiment. PEKA pun seumur hidup tiru orang maa.

secara ringkas, bakar buku subjek berkenaan, abunye campur ngan air. then minum. simple beb.

eh x ah. gile ea nak minum air abu? ergh. xsedap siaa. mane ade buat cmtu berkesan. lagi kaw xboleh nak bukak buku n bace ade ar. rugi jepp. jangan percaye ah. aku tipu jepp. tapi mak cik aku pernah buat gini aw. kena klentong ngan kawan die. last4 fail ujian die. gahaha. naive killer kott.

next. aku begitu cerewet bab makan4 ni. hahaa. xcaye tanye org ue, yg kne layan aku time galaria koko ue.

-aku xsuke makan nasi.
-cuma suke makan nasi rawan.
-xsuke gula masam4.
-xsuke bnde yang oily sangat.
-xsuka ikan sebab dr kecik smpai sekarang selalu tercekik tulang ikan and duri tercucuk4 kat hard palate and gusi.
-xsuka asam pedas dan kari.
-xsuke makanan kat kantin sebab xsedap.
-makan ikut mood whether nak pedas ke x.
-xsuke makan siput sedut yang pedas. n nasi goreng yg pedas.
-makan selalu xhabis.

sebab tu la aku kecik xbesar4. haha.